I've been married for 17 years . A year ago my husband had a affair, I was maddly in love with him I never believed he do any thing like that to us, and he did, She is younger then me and thinner, blondle . They worked together, they drive semi, I stay home and worked He has some kids I help take care of over the years we never had any together, I am 43 years old I found the love of my life to only find out he wantted some thing I didnt give him. He told me about the affair, I knew they had been talking and running together which I did not like but he always said we are just friends,Well that was a lie, they had the affair for about three weeks, After he told me i kicked him out, he was living in hes truck. she was still around and they was still talking, after a month he came back home, but wound not stop talking to her he wantted to be friends with her , that didnt work , he did stop talking to her ( i Think)  In the last year I got my CDL's and now we team we still work for the same comany she dose I've even spoke to her, Id like to do more then talk to her .He just wants me to get or it but I am having a hard time . I still love him I think, we have alot of bad days. She  has moved to another state, but I still know if I was not in the truck they cound be together. Then in the back of my head I wonder if I was not the 2nd chose, she still has young kids and he wound be tied down with that if he was with her,  I just pray I get over it soon and can love him the way I did. I know other people have been in the same spot, But I feel so alone . He shared him self with some one easl. they say it happens all the time and they have all these reasons it happens, I dont buy must of them If you love some one turely love them you can stay ture to them.