|FROM THE BUG'S EYE VIEW|
TB got mad at me b/c I didn't have $25 for her to take Faye & Edward home, but why the hell should I pay for this? I wasn't the one that went & got them in the first place, & since they only wanted to come here so they could go to the doctor, they should pay TB for taking them to/from Martin County. Yet somehow it was my fault. I'm so sick of being ppl's "bank." I have my own bills to pay & it's difficult enough to do that right now seeing as how I haven't had any income since the very beginning of June.
What also pisses me off is that TB owes me over $900 yet she has led herself to believe that she only owes me a little over $100. OH HELL NO!!! She already squandered my savings from earlier this year, saying my money went to pay my bills, when in fact, most went up her nose since my bills (from Feb to April) didn't equal out to the $2600+ I had saved. She is beyond delusional in thinking any of her bullshit is true. She needs to quit spending so damn much money on pills. I read her bank statement today & saw where she withdrew $500 at one time. It doesn't take a genius to realize where all of it's going. I'm trying to convince her to put her money in my account so I can keep tabs of it & make sure she pays her bills. Plus. it'd be easier to slowly take out the money she owes me w/o her noticing it's gone.
Not only that but yesterday I thought I'd be considerate & inform Adam about how FB had been hacked & that he needed to change his password. According to him, the whole issue was "greatly exaggerated" & that this shouldn't be deemed as an actual news report b/c it's "pathetic." Well I don't see how a threat to one's security (not only to one's FB account but also to their whole computer) is "pathetic" in any way. Fuck it---I can't be a friend to someone who's not a friend to me. Plain & simple.
I did take out the boys for a walk. It was just to the mailbox but still it did us some good to get some fresh air for a few minutes. I carried Ammo b/c he's smaller & I made Tibby wear his collar & leash, which scared him b/c he's only worn it once. He kept resisting as I led him down the hill, not knowing what I was gonna do with him. As soon as we were by the road, a car drove by & he got really scared then...even tried to run back up the hill. Lol. But after I led him across the road, got the mail, & started back up the hill, he got excited about this "adventure" especially when Begley showed up. Then just a few minutes ago they began playing & knocked over my table, which sent my full glass of water spill onto the floor & neighboring objects. I got so frustrated I snapped & began yelling at them. Then started crying b/c I felt guilty about doing so.
I have these lil mosquito-esque insects that love biting me, Actually, they just love biting my left arm (won't touch the other one) which makes me worry that there may be something wrong with it, like diabetes perhaps. Also I found a lump on the left side of my left breast last night. Even now it's a little sore. Of course, I can barely pay my bills & buy the pups food, so paying a doctor's fee is out of the question. Hell, I can barely get out of the house about once a month anyway.
Between TB, the pups, a few other ppl, being broke, & having bad health---I'm just so tired of everything. I'm fed up with all this drama, & desperately need a break, a vacation, something!