Last night, everything changed...
I won't go into full detail on exactly how and why this change occurred...it is too personal to explain...but the pseudo-relationship that I've been in for a bit now was taken to another level, an unexpected level, and it was a bit of a shock. Before anyone makes assumptions...no, I am not pregnant, engaged or getting a house mate...but I was left speechless and in tears, half out of joy and half in fear.
Essentially, to sum it up, imagine having a secret...something that only your closest friend and your mother know about. Then imagine that you start having feelings for someone and feel the need to tell them your secret before things get too involved...you want to be honest and open with them right from the start, even though you fear rejection. They stick around after you tell them but it's obvious that what they now know about you drifts through their mind occasionally as they wonder...is this something they could live with? Then imagine, one day, in a sudden moment, being given their complete and utter acceptance of you and everything they know of you.
It was the most freeing feeling...stealing away worries I've held for months.