Christ, do I feel like I'm being pressured into moving a lot quicker than I should be.  I've been planning on moving to Oregon for months, and this month should be the month that I go.. but I'm starting to sense my family is getting a little impatient with me and my unknown dates.  Basically I've got one roomie that lives here in MI with me constantly talking about moving and being miserable, and then the other roomie in OR is being lazy as hell and hasn't been doing anything but spending money and hanging out with other people(which is actually really awesome) but here I sit, having sold damn near everything I own for money to move and having absolutely no freedom to do anything because my car is wrecked and I can't fix it without spending move money, and my license is suspended because of a long list of bullshit that my mother got me into legally.  I can't get my license back without spending half of what I have saved.  So here I sit, quietly waiting for things to get rolling while nobody understands I have sacrificed the most out of all my roomies and that having to hear both of them complain is actually starting to get on my nerves because all they have to do is WAIT.  I quit my job, sold everything I own, had a mutual break-up with Jessica and have no possessions now save my laptop.

I admit, I was miserable at my job.. but it WAS a job.  I'm being told left and right life will be better over in OR but honestly.. how much better?  Here I had a job, a car and money.  There I won't have any of that but will be around more friends.  Is that pay-off even worth it?  I don't know. 

Don't get me wrong, I don't think negatively about my friends because of this at all.  I don't harbor any ill contempt or any such nonsense.. so if you're one of those friends reading this(Kris) know now that I don't think any less of you.  I just can't help but find myself being bombarded by everyone else's negativity and I'm finding it harder to bite my tongue.

Kris, I know your family in general is as uncaring as my own, but you need to relax and just wait.  All you've literally got to do is wait.  Just wait.  It will come and when it does, you'll feel like a different person.

Travis, hearing you say you haven't looked for a place to live for the third straight week and then telling me to be patient while at the same time telling me you're heading out for the night is actually really disrespectful to me.  I did my part.  I really hope that you'll live up to your end a lot sooner than you're letting on.

I need a joint.