I have no idea where my life is going. I'm pretty useless as is: no job, no school, broken car, next to no money, no ambition and no direction. Most of my days are spent online, reading, on the phone or sleeping. There is the odd family or family related outing and every week I take my grandmother to the grocery. I used to walk to see my friends but it's too cold to make a seven mile hike very often these days. Even when I am out with friends, chances are it'll be spent in some mind-altering substance induced haze assuming we get the money for it. Why in the hell is everything suddenly so pointless!? I had a life at one point, but not so much anymore. Some days it's only the fact that I might be pregnant that reinforces the fact that I can't just off myself. I almost wish that I am, no strike that, I hope I am pregnant because then I have a purpose, I have a goal. What a sad, sorry creature I have become...