We all know that the new year is almost here and we are all excited, right? Yep! I know that I am.  It just symbolizes the beginning of a new chapter in that thing I call my life. As I look back into the old years, they were not the most happy and memorable that I have had, but they were full of people that have made me stronger than before, more bitchy than I was before(which makes it easier for me to stand up for myself), more independent so I don't have to throw myself at anyone's feet and be dependent on them for everything.. and more myself! 2010 was the only good year for me, I had met a lot of different people that have stayed in my life even today.. and who have influenced me for the better. I even met my husband which is also the love of my life!  I have learned who my true friends are and who was never my friend to begin with. I have gone through so many changes during my life and some of them have been good, the other times have just been me learning my lessons. I am waiting for my husband to get off of work so that we can spend New Years eve together, just the two of us.. that is, if he doesn't want to hang out with his friend tonight. Now, I don't mind hanging out with Andy as much as I used to, but it still sometimes feels like we can't even have one night to ourselves at home or just hanging out without one of my friends or his friend wanting to do something, and sometimes it bugs me a little bit. But not going to argue with him about it.. tonight, I'm just gonna enjoy our time together.

So, in other news some things have happened that have me either confused or upset.. first the thing that upset me: My baby's daddy's wife was looking at my pictures on my Facebook, which I really don't care if she does or not, and I guess she saw this one picture that I had made off this pic-editing website and had put it on my facebook , so anyways.. she had decided to leave a comment below the picture, it had said, " how could you do this to Cory? You know that's his little girl." I didn't know what else to but to laugh about it and defend my man's honor. So, I replied to the comment saying that I am married now and he has been nothing but a father to her since he had come into our lives. I don't know what she is going to say to it, but right now I don't care.. it made me happy that she might be jealous of what I have and that just makes me giggle a little bit, lol.  Now, onto the thing that has me a little confused.. My husband and I were cuddling last night and talking and he had asked me if I knew the reason why he never told me how much he truly loves me, and of course I don't know the answer so i said no, and he had told me that with the past 3 exs he had he did the same thing with them, and I guess something bad happened and they left him.. and he doesn't want the same thing to happen with me and him, he said that he doesn't want to lose me and that he loves me a lot.  So, maybe if I wait and let him gather his words together maybe he will actually tell me? I am hoping so. I love him with all my heart!

Anyways, me and the husband went to Hastings last night and dropped my friend off so that she could spend the night with her boyfriend, which is also my ex and my best friend. I have not heard from her since last night, and I don't know if she is home yet or if she is still in Hastings. Hopefully I hear from her soon, or else I'm going to start worrying.

Peace and Love!