I was recently in a car accident,.

Something like that can really mess up your thoughts about life.

My boyfriend and I were at his friends house. Drinking heavily. We went for a drive to get more vodka, came back, and everyone was gone. We kept drinking.

I came up with the idea of going to pick up my kitten. My boyfriend and his best friend thought this was a good idea. My boyfriend was a great drunk driver.

We went to my house. Picked up the kitten. I was in the front seat, my boyfriend driving.. And I passed my kitten to his friend in the back seat.

I woke, holding my bloody face. Screaming. Asking my boyfriend why he'd do this to me.

I was laying on the ground, rolling around in shock, asking for someone to call the ambulance.

I then woke to bright lights and a scanning machiene. Cat-scans for possible head injury.

I woke again to my brother and mother standing over me.. Both with red, tiered eyes.

I kept saying I'm alive, it's ok.

My sister came. I asked where my boyfriend was. She brought him in.

The look on his face was as if he had killed me. He was so scared and remorseful.

He held my hand and kept apologising, crying. I asked what happened, he couldn't tell me.

We hit a parked car. Only a minute from my house. Both cars tottalled.

You never know what love you really have until you nearly loose someone.

Before the accident.. I was unfaithful, mean and doubtful.

After the accident I was thankful and so madly in love with the person who nearly killed me. I told him this time is the only time I'll be in hospital.. The next time I'm here.. I'll be having your child.

And you know what.. I meant it.

I thank God every single day that I can have someone I truely cherish and love so deeply.