I have feeling for this person since I was 7 until now it hasn't disappeared.. even though I wanted to forget everything about him.. I really wish my wishes didn't really come true that time so I wouldn't feel so in pain now... but I guess its too late now.. that time I never thought I would see him again.. Never thought I was so happy to see him, entering the same high school even though he doesn't recognize me.. I'm so happy.. and went I we're 15.. that is last year.. I never thought we would enter the same class.. I was the class monitor that time.. so that time was the chance to get close to him again..but I never dare to tell him my feelings for him.. just being able to talk to him is enough for me my best friends knows all about it.. even my cousin.. we all support each other so much.. .. but it wasn't long.. when I'm being transfered to this school they all so sad... after a month have past.. they become more  busy.. including me.. I have a test and they sport day nearly come.. I have to prepared... I secretly brought my phone along to my hostel and chat with them.. suddenly the boy I like asking me about my cousin does she had a boyfriend or not.. I just act like I dont care but that time I notice.. every time a guy ask something like that because he likes that girl... that time my ex-BF are still in contact as friends... After a few months after that, he chat with me again and said he has a new girlfriends I can already guess who she was.. but I pretend I didn't know... I dont want to know who she was.. I never thought my own cousin betray me.. even my friends.. my cousin, he never like him.. but he accept him because as long as that guy love her that's fine.. *I was hurt* I even didn't talk to them for two month... coz , that guy have known that i like him... I dont care if he doesn't like me but couple with my cousin is too much... even now its hard for me to accept it all.. only two of my friends support me.. coz someone you like been taken by your own friend that had already know your feelings for him and the guy who also know your feelings to act like they never know about it... really hurt... the feelings of betray by  my own friends and cousin... that could never disappear no matter what....