Quote of the Day:

"There seems to be a kind of order in the universe, in the movement of the stars and the turning of the earth and the changing of the seasons, and even in the cycle of human life. But human life itself is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own rights and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own."

Song of the Day~Should've Tried Harder-Hey Monday

How it Relates:

I'm not gonna lie, the song and the quote and what I have to say have no correlation at all.  I just really liked the quote and I love the song.  So this entry is just gonna be a summation of the past couple days and stuff that I've been thinking about recently.

Where should I start...

Eli<3

He talked to me on Friday.  Like he came and found me to tell me that on the quiz I helped him study for he got a one-hundred.  And then we talked for like ten minutes.  I asked him why he wasn't in class and he said there were two reasons: one: He just didn't want to be in class and two: he knew I was down there.  I think he's starting to like me again.  I hope so.  Wesley told me that me and Eli would be so cute together.  He has also planned out our whole lives... Which is weird.  According to him we're gonna date through college, I'm gonna become a singer, and he's gonna be a doctor, and we're gonna get married and settle in a ranch in Tennessee.  Haha.  If only that would happen...

I took my AP World History test on Thursday.  It was hard, but I'm so happy it's over.  Now during that class we have absolutely nothing to do, meaning we're gonna have parties everyday. 

I'm almost a senior!  Then I have college.  I'm technically gonna be in college next year, but I'm still a high-schooler.  I can't wait for this year to be over.

The MH camping trip is this weekend.  I picked my song to perform.   I'll get someone to record it, and I'll post it.  

I've been getting really annoyed with EVERYBODY recently.  Like I can barely stand to speak to anyone.  Like I really just want to be locked in my room for a couple of days and then I think I'll be fine.

Like take Cera for example.  She gets mad when me and Sam hang out, because they like aren't friends anymore or something like that.  But I don't get mad when she blows me off for Alex, or when she sits there and talks to Cody.  To me her talking to Cody after what happened is beyond worse then me talking to Sam.  I mean me and Sam have been friends since the first grade, and she's never done anything to me, whereas her and Cody have only been friends since last year, and he lied to her and a ton of other stuff.   I just don't get it.

Austin's been talking to me a lot recently.  Its really weird.  He texts me, and talks to me almost every chance he gets.  I miss him as a friend sometimes, but I know for a fact that if I were to become friends with him again, I would end up liking him again, and probably give him a 4th chance, but I'm keeping my walls up and He's not getting back in.

I know my life probably bores you.  It bores me half the time.  and once again I'm sorry for all the Teenage-girl-i-like-him-i-hope-he-likes-me-back stuff.  But it's just what I feel.  I keep everything inside of me in the "real-world"  this is my place to vent, my place to tell my secrets to strangers, because the people in my life would use everything against me and make fun of me.