Lets start with the good part of this entry shall we....
I went with Rd yesterday, we had an AMAZING time. We went out lunch at a great Chinese restaurant, went back to his house, and watch some of the marathon of the show "Merlin" and just hung out and enjoyed one another.
It was great spending the entire day with him knowing that I didn't have a time to be home, and knowing that when it was time to go to bed I would be crawling into bed with an amazing guy who I am falling more and more in love with...that's right, "miss I give up" has found a guy to open my heart again and heal the wounds left from past heartaches.
The entire time with him was just awesome. We laughed, we talked, we joked, we watched our favorite shows, we made love, we laughed some more, we talked, and I just couldn't believe that finally there was a guy who wants nothing from me than just my love and time.
He surprised me with something that I was NOT expecting. For school he bought me a brand new laptop. I couldn't believe that he would buy me something like this. I told him that I didn't deserve something this expensive, and he looked at me and said "baby, you deserve everything in the world" I could do anything or say anything, I just smiled a cheese ball smile.
This morning I woke up beside him, I felt his warm body next to mine, his king size, soft bed underneath us, and the sunlight trying to break through his dark curtains.
| smiled and thought "this must be what I've been waiting for"
We spent the morning watching the rest of season 1 "walking dead"
I got home around 1 pm....and that is where the good weekend ends.
As soon as I walked in, Lynn had a attitude, glaring eyes, and I felt the tension as soon as I opened the front door.
I'm not exaggerating here at all either.
She told me how grandma didn't sleep good last night, and I knew she wouldn't with me being gone, that's a given.
She made it known how she'd been up since yesterday because if she went to sleep she wouldn't be able to hear grandma incase she got up in the night.
I have no idea how Lynn raised babies with being a heavy sleeper like she says she is, she'll say "well that's different" I argue that it's not different, but whatever.
Then Lynn said "you need to take Junior (the dog) out, I haven't been able to" Okay, first off, she couldn't take the dog out the entire time I was gone because of grandma, second, I cook, clean, care for grandma, deal with nurses, take the dogs, out, and now do homework everyday, and I seem to get things done, yet for one day and night she couldn't take the dog out?? seems fucked up huh?
Also, I came home to NOTHING being done, not the dishes, the living room is a mess, there was trash everywhere, literally she did NOTHING, I'm sure because of grandma...
When I asked her if she'd help me with my present Rd got me she of course had to have a fucking rude reply.
Me-When you get out of the bathroom, do you want to help me with my present
Lynn-what, did you get something for giving him booty
Me-I told him you'd say that
Lynn-that's the only reason a guy gets you presents, so you'll keep sleeping with them
I went back into her room, I wouldn't of even showed her my laptop if I would of known how to get the damn Wi-Fi to work,
So I went back to her room
Me-see, this is what he got me
Lynn-wow he got you a laptop, that's expensive
Me-yea, he had it when he picked me up, but I didn't know it until we got to his house yesterday evening
Lynn-so what makes you think I'm going to let you use my Wi-Fi
she did, she helped me set it up, but I could tell she was incredibly jealous.
After she got it working I told her thank you. For some reason Farmville bogged down on FB, and what happen next showed just how mature and not jealous she is
She punched the fucking computer screen. I am not making this up, she punched the screen of the computer!
Joe came in about that time and I said "tell your sister not to punch the computer"
She then popped off "what it's mine, whatever I'll just turn it off"
Joe-what's wrong with you
Lynn-Nothing, just tired of people telling me what to do, I'll punch it if I want
Joe-you're crazy, what's wrong with you
Lynn-Nothing, I'm fine, people just expect me to sit here all sweet and nice
Joe-Whatever, you need to calm down
Then she decided to unhook the mouse from the computer, I looked up and said "what are you doing"
Apparently that question was not taken lightly.
She popped off shitty "it looks like I'm unhooking the mouse, what, if won't work, why have it"
That is when I got up and left the room, she was being way to immature for me.
She just came into the living room and said "so did you get a power cord" I said "yea, its in that bag, with the papers on it and stuff"
Then right before she walked away she said in a very shitty tone "you might want to plug it up soon, those don't stay charged very long"
What the fuck? Why does she have to make me feel so guilty? Why am I made to feel like I am the worst person on the planet for having a boyfriend, and him buying me a laptop as a present for school?
Why does she have to be like this, why can't she be supportive, why can't she care for OUR grandmother without making it seem like its a huge fucking obligation?
I want to cry right now, I'm happy that I have such an amazing guy in my life yet I have a cousin who is determined to make me feel as worse as possible for it....I don't know what to do, I seriously don't know anymore.