I went with Rd yesterday and stayed the night. I had an amazing time. I always do when I'm with Rd though, we have so much in common, I feel like I can be me around him without any judgments. He wants nothing from me except my love and time. He expects nothing from me, demands nothing from me, and lets me be me, with all my flaws, faults, fat, pimples, stretch marks, silly, random thoughts, corny jokes, serious moments, and random, sometimes a lot of questions. He's fabulous, and I thank God that He has places him in my life, he has made it brighter, and made me feel beautiful and sexy again, and it's a wonderful feeling.

I just wish Lynn was as happy for me and as supportive as my grandma and sister are. I hate going with Rd and coming home to being treated like a criminal.
I hate that she has to be rude, and snooty to me when I get home. Like when I got home today she said in a shitty tone "I saved the bathroom for you to clean, it needs to be scrubbed so I can take a bath" I thought 'so you can clean the entire house for once, yet you can't clean the bathroom' I know she did that just to be shitty, but instead of letting it bother me or ruin my good mood from seeing my love, I got up, cleaned the damn bathroom, and left it at that. 

I realize that she probably hates that I have a bf (actually I know she does) and I get she's probably jealous that I am going places, and someone is buying me stuff, and someone loves me and wants to spend time with me and whatever else, but is it really necessary  for her to treat me the way she does?
It's not my fault that finally after all the years of searching, and praying, broken hearts, the "I swear I am done with love" and the "I give up" finally I found a guy (well he found me) who actually is truly amazing. 
I shouldn't be made to feel guilty when I come home from seeing Rd, I shouldn't be made to feel like a criminal, or like I'm abandoning grandma.
I think it's only right that Lynn pitch in a little more and help out with OUR grandma, it's her duty as a grandchild I think, not to mention it's whats right.

But regardless, although Lynn's negative attitude is annoying and sometimes gets to me, I have a positive light in my life now. I now have a reason to smile on a daily basis, and I will be damned if I let her take that away just because she's jealous. I deserve a little happiness, and as long as my grandma is happy for me, and supportive, taken care of that is all that matters. 


I can't wait until I see Rd again, it will be the longest time..,,,at least that's how it will feel.

Well I am off to start my new assignments for next week..a paper on computer programs (BLAH) and a paper on my personality for comp (BORING) such is the life of a college student...oh that sounds so awesome to say :)