So If you go back an entry or two you will hear about my "S" for the first time. S is a man that I have had feelings for for awhile. When I wrote that last entry we were just spending time together, trying to see where things went. Well, 5 days after that entry S and I started our relationship together. I am not clean yet but I am working towards that goal. I stopped working as a prostitute and I am allowing S to take care of me for now. He buys be methadone pills and I have been dosing myself. I really should join a clinic for the support but its so hard having to go there every single day.
Being on methadone is a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. I still haven't been able to go a full day without using heroin or morphine at least once. I am realizing my addiction to needles is a lot more serious then I thought. I haven't done any research on needle addiction at this point. By the time I write the next entry, I will make sure I do my homework.
I started an online store and its been taking a while for me to finish preparing all the products however it's almost done. I am still contemplating on whether or not I want to provide a link within my diary or not, I guess soon enough you will know.