I have over 4,000 photographs of just of myself saved on my computer from modeling and personal photo shoots. Along side the albums of me all dressed up with make up on, smiling, looking like I am the happiest I could ever be, are photos I have taken of my worst abscesses and disfigurements caused by years of heroin abuse.  

For each album I come up with a name to go along with the theme of the photos.  as, "Rolling in the Dough" (a photo shoot where I am nude and laying in about $5,000 cash), "Baby Blues" (I am wearing a pair of sky blue contacts), and "Angel White" (I'm wearing a cotton white dress and I am isolated on an all white background). 

My most painful abscess was caused from muscling morphine gel in my bicep. I had already been muscling in that general area for about a year and my bicep muscle was so tight that my arm was in a permanent L shape, as I was unable to extend it. However once this infection came and left I was able to have full use of my arm again. The abscess lastest a little over 2 weeks and when I was finally able to drain or pop it, I filled up a full trash bag of puss, puss that literally smelt like death. 

The following collage documents from start to finish what I went through regarding that infection.