I literally feel as if I’m dying,  like the hours in the day seem to be inching by as if time has stopped and taunted me just waiting for mother nature to take her time to taunt me by delivering me my monthly gift late.  Like she is standing there waiting for something bad to happen and then hand the pretty red box that only brings pain and depression at this point. I don’t really know if I could take it, it just does not make sense if I have all these signs and for me not to be. It’s also like I want something to blame all this on, all the hormones, all the feelings all of it. It just CAN’T CAN’T be a fluke!