|Someday it'll all be ok|
Another night alone :( Jeff is on a plane to California right now. One of the companies he works for is based in Fountain Valley, CA. He'll be gone until late Wednesday night.
But at least we got to spend a nice Saturday together. It was one of those "ordinary days" that give me an idea of what our life will be like once we're married and living together. I helped him do the laundry and he mowed the yard. We went to Home Depot and bought a grill and checked out the outdoor furniture. There is a table and 4 chairs that I really liked, and next week Jeff's brother is going to bring his truck so that they can pick it up. Then we went to the grocery store and got some steaks, potatoes, salad, and corn for dinner. I also had to get some butterfinger flavored ice cream for dessert:)
Then we went back to Jeff's house and I helped Jeff put his new charcoal grill together. (It took at least an hour). I peeled the potatoes to make mashed potatoes, while he grilled the steaks. Cooking together was really nice:) It was my first time to eat dinner at Jeff's new house and the food was excellent. I'm so used to always going out to eat with Jeff, but it's nice to stay in sometimes. After dinner, we walked the neighborhood as the sun was setting. Jeff wanted to see how I jog, so I jogged a little, even though I was wearing sandals and no sports bra. I think I'm going to try and jog more with him in the future (once we're both wearing workout clothes). About anyone can learn to jog, so long as they go slow enough and build up their endurance over time.
We had planned on going to the 7:50 showing of Snow White and the Huntsman, but since it took so long to put the grill together and make dinner, we ended up going to the 10 pm show. The guy that took our tickets wished Jeff a Happy Father's Day. I guess Jeff likes like a dad, lol. But I hope, in 2 years, he will be a dad. Snow White and the Huntsman was darker and more violent than I expected it to be. I won't spoil it, but I'll just say it wasn't one of my favorite movies. Charlize Theron was excellent as the evil queen, but Kristen Stewart was her typical bland actress self.
Jeff made me biscuits and gravy for breakfast this morning:) It reminded me of when I was n college freshman year and would have biscuits and gravy almost every morning, since that was the specialty in my dorm's restaurant. Probably why I was 15 pounds heavier in college. He also loaded me up lots of leftover steak and mashed potatoes. I had them for dinner tonight and they were just as good the second time:) When he dropped me off at my house this morning, he went to lay down on my bed. I unloaded my stuff and then went and laid beside him. He started crying and I hugged him and rubbed his back. He said he was just really stressed with work and dreading having to go on another trip right after he got home from his last trip. The first time I was with him when he cried, it freaked me out, but now I just try to be as supportive as I can be. Remind him that he'll be back home in 4 days and that I love him. Even though being affectionate and caring is not my forte, when I see the man I love crying, I want to be there for him and let him know that it is ok for him to show his emotions instead of keepng everything bottled up inside. About a month ago, Jeff stopped taking his antidepressants. I was surprised by that, and for a week he had side effects of headache and nausea, but he said that he wanted to stop relying on a pill to help him get through every day. He made a joke that he cries while I drink. I guess it's true. When I'm feeling depressed I drink to dull my emotions. Lately, it's been about every other day, some White Russian or a margarita. I don't think I have any type of drinking problem and never will have a problem, but the reality is that both my mom and Jeff's mom are alcoholics. Jeff doesn't drink at all because of his mother. I rarely drink wine, which is my mother's drink of choice. I guess it's just one of those things to be aware of, that alcoholism is in our genes.
This week I was able to do my strength training, jogging, and high intensity interval training exercises. Sunday was Insanity, Monday jogging, Tuesday Back and Biceps, Ab Ripper, Wednesday Plyometrics, Thursday running, Friday Shoulders and Arms, Ab Ripper, Saturday Insanity, and today I jogged 3 miles. Probably should have made today my rest day, but after steak and potatoes and biscuits and gravy I felt like sweating my a%$ off in the 93 degree heat. I jogged a little slower than normal and took some walking breaks to be safe and not overdo it in the heat. I get bored easily when exercising, so I'm really excited about this new hybrid weekly exercise routine. Hoping it will keep me in good shape until the wedding day.
I was thinking today how I haven't been on vacation in a year. My last vacation was exactly a year ago, when I went to Fort Myers with my sister and we spent a week on the beach. Sure, I'm not working 40 hours weeks anymore, so you could technically say I'm on vacation every week, but it's not the same as getting out of town and having a change of location. I miss traveling. I just keep telling myself that Sept 15th (honeymoon) will be here soon.
Everyone in Florida seems to be having a great time. Even though they are cramped in a single condo, the kids are having a wonderful summer, getting to go to the pool and marina everyday and going to the beach every weekend. My sister and mom send me pics and sometimes I get jealous. Here's the latest pic, Trevon doing a handstand (with my sister's help).