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Lily Devonshire


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Location: Orange County, California
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10,000 Hours & Perpetual Beginner Syndrome Sunday, August 14, 2011

I replaced the strings on the Salvi harp yesterday, and retuned again this morning, very carefully. Then sat down and had 45 minutes of good practice. (I'm using "Harp for Today" and paying careful attention to form today ... and yes, I've got to get to the chiropractor.  I can feel that my sacrum is out of alignment again, which is going to make practice difficult if I don't get it handled.)
 
I'm depressed, though.  I hate being a perpetual beginner, and yet it sums up my life on so many different levels.  Here's how it works:  I work very hard at something - horseback riding, music, whatever, its not important.  But I work and sweat and struggle and learn and make some progress and then -  HERE COMES THE HAMMER!  - things change at work ... a new duty, something else to track, a new project, someone's out on leave, another layoff, whatever ... and my life goes into the blender. Again.  Maybe I'd developed a discipline of getting up an hour early so I can do my SOL meditations, or have harp practice or whatever, but now I'm using that hour to get into the office and crank through the extra work I've been assigned.
 
This year has been like that.  For everyone, I know, I know.  But I am so tired.  I'm so tired of missing out on my real life.  It can't be denied that the boundary between personal and professional time has, for an awful lot of people, been effectively obliterated, and the effect is demoralizing.
 
My callouses are gone.  I am starting all over again.  Yes, I know I'm not *really* starting over ... I've done enough work in the past that my basics are good, and those good habits haven't fallen by the wayside.  But there's no denying that my hands are much weaker than they were; I need to redo all that conditioning work. 
 
Its not just harp practice.  It's my meditational practice.  It's cooking.  It's my horsemanship.  I'm back to square one in so many different areas of my life that I just can't stand it.  But what can I do about it? I have to start over; the only alternative is to give up utterly, and I just can't do that.  I refuse to be a corporate drone, one of those sad, goblinated little people who literally lives to work and doesn't have the time to actually live their life...and ends up alienated not only from family, from friends, but from themselves as well.
 
Does anyone else out there struggle with this??  With never being able to achieve mastery of anything, because keeping bread and bologna in the fridge sucks up every creative impulse and moment you have? 
 
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There's a 10,000 hour rule.  I wanted to know where it came from, and lo and behold, Google delivered.  Daniel Levitin wrote about it in his book "This is Your Brain on Music."  Here's what he wrote:

ten thousand hours of practice is required to achieve the level of mastery associated with being a world-class expert — in anything. In study after study, of composers, basketball players, fiction writers, ice skaters, concert pianists, chess players, master criminals, and what have you, this number comes up again and again. Ten thousand hours is the equivalent to roughly three hours per day, or twenty hours per week, of practice over ten years. Of course, this doesn’t address why some people don’t seem to get anywhere when they practice, and why some people get more out of their practice sessions than others. But no one has yet found a case in which true world-class expertise was accomplished in less time. It seems that it takes the brain this long to assimilate all that it needs to know to achieve true mastery.

Okay then.  10,000 hours.  Of EFFECTIVE practice.  (You get no points for pointless meanderings, Lily!)  So ...
 
Harp Practice  
Hours to Mastery 10,000.00
Hours logged 0.79
Hours to go 9,999.21
   
SOL  
Days achieved 18-50 0
Days to go 924

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My former harp teacher, Stephanie, is going to join us for brunch over at an Indian restaurant in ... well, holy pumpkins, she's going to be here in 45 minutes.  So I'll have to pick this up later, but you can bet I'm going to talk to her about whether she thinks the 10,000 hour rule holds water.

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Oh, and we have progress on the Compost front!  108 degrees for two days running now!  Woo-hoo!  Here's a big THANK YOU to microbes.



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Just stumbled onto your diary and, oh my, just love it! You write so well, so entertainingly, and we have a bunch of interests in common...gardening (I can't NOT garden and agree completely with you on pure and healthy food), horses (I always thought I'd have horses and still think I will), harps (have been toying with and looking into celtic harps), meditation, etc. I look forward to more of your thoughts here! [lelis] 8/14/2011 2:10:49 PM
Oh yeah. I totally get this. I read about the 10,000 hour rule in Malcolm Gladwell's book. I think it was Blink. I am sure having lunch with your harp teacher will help with the motivation.

I feel that just beginning thing right now with bike riding having just bought a new bike a few months ago. Work is so intense and it is so difficult to make myself go out and ride because I am still awkward and unconditioned. It is so much easier to do things I do well I have discovered.

But I really do think re-mastery is the sign of a wise life well lived. :) [noko]
8/19/2011 10:54:35 PM
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