Wake up in the morning feeling fine and dandy. -Sings-
Anyway, back to the ranting. [Sorry guys]
Many things have sorta gone wrong today.. And I just feel so pointless and stressed that I actually cannot gather the energy to even type this out to this diary but I know I should because it's helpful in the long run, but I just.. Don't feel as if this sort of help will ever actually HELP me at all...
Josh and I left for our Train which leaves at 15:30 and got to the station at 15:10. The 15:30 train was cancelled as was the one before, 15:15. We then caught the 15:55 train but we would have never made the coach in time as THAT leaves at 16:30 and the train would have gotten in at 16:25. It takes 10minutes to get across to the coach station from the train station and then 5minutes to find the coach. Never would have made it because of cancelling trains. I'm clearly not going home today after. Wonderful.
I spoke to my corps director who pretty much told me that I was unorganised and needed to sort my priorities out. I needed to stand up to the role of Caption Head of the Frontline. I've been cut from the competition on Sunday because I missed my coach home. I'm unable to make finals camp so it's unfair on the corps for adding all of the stuff on the Saturday and to have me not be there AND march on Sunday. I'm not at the rehearsal on Saturday so I'm absent for the entire Finals Camp. Keith has said that he's not allowing me to march for the competition as it isn't fair on the rest of the corps and I'm not going to be allowed a run through at any point before hand.
My only other alternative is to catch a coach up to the Competition in The Pacemakers D&B Corps coach. But I don't know if I'm
a) Allowed to travel with the corps
b) Any point in me going up
I went and spoke to Lin from The Pacemakers and I'm allowed, but my present at this rehearsal made everything really awkward.
Megan King. Needs to know that if she has something to SAY to someone about me? It isn't real or mean anything at all until she can say it to my face, otherwise she can bitch all she likes and I won't give a toss. BUT if she continues to try and pry Josh away from me, I'll show her what my 5ft6" body and my 3" wide knuckles will do to that pretty face of hers. Just saying.
Also, glaring? Really bitch? Come at me. Want to take it outside, or do your attention seeking traits not work when people are expecting actual events to occur?
Anyway. Enough of my fucking ranting because as I guessed, this has only made things immediately worse. I'm possibly going to go to sleep now, listen to Josh ask me to come back to the corner and then shift my ass again. ANYWAY. Not that I care, it shows that someone actually wants my attention rather than remove me from every picture possible.