So I'm starting today's entry off on a rather different note.
The boy in the gif above is Pewdiepie, a popular gamer from
youtube who's specialty is screaming like a girl while playing
horror games. I'm a huuuge fan of him--he's my all-time favorite
youtuber. I watch his videos daily...they always cheer me up! His
hilarious videos really helped me get through my last breakup...even
though I don't know much about videogames, Pewdie makes them
easy to understand and really fun to watch. He's also probably
the most kind, cheerful, and genuine internet celebrity i've ever seen.
I just really adore him and his silly videos. ♥ Anyway, the reason
I'm bringing him up right now is because he's working on a charity
fundraiser with his fans...he's raising money to help St. Jude's cancer research.
So, if you could watch his video concerning the charity, and possibly
donate, it would be really really awesome! I'm hoping to donate at
least $5 or $10 myself...it's not much, but every dollar counts ♥ 
If you don't want to donate, at least take a look at his videos! Pewdie is
absolutely hysterical! Just a few seconds of one of his 'scare montages'
had me crying with laughter the first time I watched it!
He's also mad attractive with an adorable Swedish accent.
JUST SAYING. ♥
Yesterday wasn't very eventful. Did a little more packing--
but not as much as I probably could have gotten done.
Babysat my brother for an hour or two early in the morning.
Got a bunch of things saved for my friend Dana--we started
a habit of saving each other pretty pictures, music, and videos
and trading thumbdrives back and forth with stuff on them for
each other. We started doing it when we were young, because
she didn't have internet connection at her house, so I essentially
"was her internet" as we always used to say. We still do it now
and then, even though we're in college, lol. Anyway, I'm seeing
her and the rest of my highschool friends tonight at my friend's house
down the street for a 'movie night' type deal...I know I've been bitching
about everyone for the last few days, but y'know I'm actually starting to
look forward to seeing everyone again, one last time before we go
off to school~
My family left last night to spend a couple nights at the Cape.
I stayed here to house-sit and take care of all the animals (the
cats, our fish, and our chickens--the latest additions to our family)
I'm actually kind of glad to be gone, to be honest. I've stayed home
alone a few times like this and I love it. ♥ My mum still gets
incredibly nervous though, haha...But I'm hoping she calms down
eventually. I'm 19 now, so she has to learn to leave me places eventually.
Not sure what I'm planning to get done today. I should try to pack a
lot more, but I also have a few things I need to finish up for Dana's
thumbdrive, and I was hoping to get a little more blogging done
as well. Knowing me, I'll get distracted doing something stupid, lol.
I started watching the anime Revolutionary Girl Utena--and I love it. I
adore retro magical girl animes, so so much. I might end up watching more
of it later.
ps. i took some photos of my doll and toy collection yesterday for
caite. i promise to post them in my next entry ♥
Also. . .
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y J H O N E N V A S Q U E Z !
Ohh, Jhonen Jhonen Jhonen...Where do I begin telling everyone
about you? Well, most of you reading have known me for a few
years, so you know how much I adore him and his comics. I
watched Invader Zim as a wee thing--back in the day when I still
read that Nickelodean magazine they put out for kids (do they still
publish them...?) Anyway, I remember they published an
interview with him back when I was probably around eight...I didn't
retain his name of course, but I distinctly remember his edgy angular
artwork of Invader Zim style tentacles scrawling across the pages, and
telling tales of drawing monsters all throughout his school years. I was
a very late bloomer when it came to boys, but I became very flustered and
giddy for one of the first times ever while reading that interview...He
seemed so fascinating! Completely different from anything I was into--I
liked fairies and glitter and neopets (ha)...But, he and his work left
me staring, entranced by a world that wasn't my own.
As I got older, I'd see Johnny the Homicidal Maniac avatars all
over the popular gothic lolita forum I used to stalk..back when
lolitas all wore black dresses with stripper heels and cross motifs
everywhere. (old school lolita fashion humor...sorry, I had to throw
it in) The name Jhonen Vasquez and the titles of his comics were
always tossed about my world, always drifting somewhere along
the edges of my subconscious, perhaps by some sort of fate, I don't
know.
Either way, I eventually bought his Johnny the Homicidal Maniac
comic when I was 15, and fell in love immediately. I read that book
over and over and over...I practically had the thing memorized. Back
when I was suffering from extreme anxiety and mental illness during
that manipulative relationship with Eric, I would read it every night to
calm myself down...I wouldn't be able to relax if it wasn't in my hands.
That was a terrifying time to be inside my head--there were some nights
I seriously thought I would die because of how sick my anxiety was
making me. But those JTHM comics made me feel okay--they made me
laugh, they showed me it was okay to feel things, they showed how silly
people could be sometimes. I brought them with me everywhere--I eventually
had to buy a second copy of the Director's Cut edition because mine started
to fall apart.
It was really hard to write that last paragraph, and I still feel like I
didn't do those emotions justice. That comic really saved my life
and kept my last thread of sanity in tact. Nowadays I'm much healthier,
but Jhonen's comics never fail to give me a giggle when I'm feeling a
bit down. I've collected almost all of them now, and they're some
of my most prized possessions. (the Fillerbunny comics are my favorite ♥)
Some people bitch about Mr. Vasquez being an asshole, and he
very well may be one, but I think there's something admirable in his
"fuck you I do what I want" attitude. No matter what anyone says
to him, he'll always continue to believe in what he loves, which
can be a hard thing to do sometimes. He's a fascinating creature.
So, with all that rambling over with, much much love to you Jhonen.
You'll always have a place in my childhood and in my heart.
Happy 40th birthday, may the next year be as successful for you as ever ♥
I love you ♥
