Madison Jade Gardner, dont blame yourself for any of this at all.  Im sorry.  You didnt do anything to cause this it was on my end.  I just want you to know that for these last few months all i ever wanted was for you to be happy.  Thats all i wanted, that all i cared about was for you to be happy.  Dont worry about me but please worry about yourself.  Just be happy and know that i allways wanted the best for you.  Dont worry, you will find someone like me again, someone you will be allowed to date, someone that your dad will let hold you in his arms and you will be happy.  You will have you 4 kids and your perfect home, you will have the life you wanted.  Your beautiful, young, and have you whole life in front of you so dont even worry about stuff like that.  Just please be happy please please please please be happy. Im sorry