|A Beautiful Mess|
Had my appointment yesterday. My little over-acheiver produced so much amniotic fluid! I am so proud of her. I was at 11 last week and it was low. I am not at 17! Go Lily!!! She weighs 7 lbs 12 ozs - The doctor is letting me decide what I want to do next week. He said he will not let me go any time over my due date, so I am going to tell him I would like to be induced if she doesn't come naturally. He is worried my pelvis isn't wide enough to pass an 8 lb baby, but the sonogram could be off by 10% meaning that she might only be 7 lbs or on the other hand she could already be over 8. I just really don't know what to do. This is a tough decision. My mother in law says there is no reason why I can't have the baby naturally. She has seen women have 9 pound babies. The weird thing is is that Lily is gaining, but I am not. Not complaining about that at all, but she just keeps getting bigger and I am not. Even my MIL said I am still pretty small for carrying an almost 8 lb baby and being over 9 mths pregnant. I am carrying like my mom did though.
Maybe I shouldn't have jumped the gun and ordered all that Nutrisystem. I just got my second month yesterday. I am storing it under my bed and in my closet! I have nowhere else to put it!!! I have to remember to cancel my third shipment. I think I only need two months. I really don't want to get too thin. Maybe I will be back to my pre-pregnancy weight by the time school starts in September.
Still hoping to go into labor any day now. I thought he was going to admit me today. I got my pedicure and my nails done really short, so I don't have to worry about them for a few weeks. I did them pink, for Lily!
Since he didn't admit me, I enrolled in another course towards my Masters plus 30 - (that's the next payscale upgrade) I already have my MA so now I am just taking credits towards my plus 30 - I already have 5 credits. I enrolled in a class about teaching strategies for the short story. I may try and take one more class on maternity leave so when I start school in September I will have taken 12 credits. Slow and steady...whenever I have a few extra dollars saved that is when I take a class. I am pretty excited to start. I love school and this will give me something to focus on for the next week. My goal is to bang out the class in a week.
Lily has been speaking to me for the last couple of days. I bought a book on Angels and Ascended Masters - I didn't look at the cover when I bought the book. When I got home to read, I noticed that the paining of the woman on the cover was holding a huge bouquet of lilies. I also noticed that the bouquet of roses and lilies that my students bought me last week all the roses died, but the lilies are huge and open. I looked up the symbolic message of lilies and yellow lilies mean "walking on air". "Walking on Air" is the title of our wedding song. One more...Yesterday while I was getting my nails done I was reading my book on Angels and I turned it over to read the cover. Turns out that the woman on the cover is the goddess Guenevere and she is the goddess of fertility and motherhood. I wonder what signs Lily will send me today!
I am going to take a nice brisk walk this afternoon and meet some colleagues for lunch. Maybe that will get labor started!!! Wish me luck!