Well, I just decided I'd make a new entry. I've been feeling kind of sad lately. I'd feel alright for a moment, and then just go back to being sad. I don't know what it is. Also, I feel like I need to know something that I'll probably never know. Sometimes I just want to forget everything, and start my life over. Or just rewind time so I could stop myself from doing certain things. I wish I had people who cared about me around, so they could tell me not to do certain things. Sometimes I do stupid shit because I feel like I have to, or I feel like I'll get some type of relief from it. But it fails, every fucking time. I need to learn how to just hold my feelings in, but I've been doing that for so long. I decided to try something different, and that also didn't work. So now what?

   I just want one thing to work out. I know everything can't work out the way I want them to, but at least one thing? 

   I don't feel like I'm asking for a whole lot,honestly. I just want some things to work out and I just want the truth. That's it. Ugh, I can't sleep. It's been over a month, and I can't. Stop. I don't know why. I got over everyone else so easily. I had this "I don't care" attitude. But not this time. I actually do care. Which is weird,for me at least. Usually even when I do care, I'm so good at pretending I don't. I'm not even trying to pretend this time. Even though it's May, my summer has officially started, so who knows. Maybe something awesome will happen and I know don't know it. I sure hope so.