So tonight my colleague who is very sweet offered to take me out for dinner and cocktails. I didn't want to refuse her hospitality because it's very nice of her to take her time to take me out places and show me the city, but I was dreading turning down all-you-can-eat sushi without being too obvious or weird about it, and turning down alcohol. I've been stressing about it all week but it turned out pretty ok. The one really awkward moment was when my boss purchased little wines for each of us and then wanted to toast. I had a slight freakout in my head where I didn't know what to do and I felt like I was holding a glass of poison in my hand that everyone wanted me to drink. Luckily someone else in the group never drinks and she just mimed having a sip, so I did the same and luckily no one seemed to notice.
I do miss a little bit getting to enjoy the nice German beer while I'm here, but it's a small price to pay to help this little blob of cells along.
My husband and I were chatting today and we pretty much know exactly when this KIP (kid in progress) was conceived. It was just a couple of days before Valentine's Day, which means that I'm barely over two weeks pregnant right now. It's so crazy that we were able to find out through the pregnancy test already since at that time I was barely over a week pregnant. I've been reading lots of stuff online, and the little blob of cells may not even be implanted into the uterine wall yet. There is still so much time left to go, and so much more development this thing needs to go through before it becomes something even resembling a baby. It makes it seem even more weird and abstract, knowing that it's just this mass of cells right now, it may not even be at the blastocyst stage yet. I think it may have felt more realistic if I'd found out after a few more weeks when the KIP was at the tadpole stage. At least a tadpole is something you can anthropomorphize somewhat, but it's hard to think of a microscopic blob of random cells as your future child.
I had a small moment in the office today when I felt that maybe I might be feeling some sort of morning sickness, but I think all this fizzy water is just making me gassy. TMI but pregnancy does that to you doesn't it?