im writing my entry before Daddy reminds me!! he is going to be really proud of me! which gives me the best feeling in the entire world! 

ok so i checked my "notes" today and someone was a jerk and said something mean... and i just dont understand what the  point of that is ya know? it really bothered me... i went on the persons page and it said how they dont care about what anyone says about their entries because its their diary and their thoughts... it seemed like they were expecting people to be mean to them? and maybe thats because they leave mean comments on other peoples diaries? i just dont understand... it bothered me... it didnt hurt me... but it bothered me a lot.... i never thought about making all of this private because i never expected anyone to read it because i personally dont read anyones diary on here... but maybe i should make it all private... idk... 

ok so today i had work and it wasnt that bad actually!!! i had a lot of spare time so i doodled a little. i havent drawn since 8th grade i think, and it was actually really fun to do some sketching! tho i probably wont ever do it  again... ALSO we finally fixed my car, thank god... and i had found a used car that i REALLY wanted to buy, but my dad said if i did hes not paying for the insurance, and i cant afford to get a car and pay insurance... its a long story... but my dad wants to keep the jeep i drive now for when he has to get stuff at home depot and bring stuff to the dump and stuff like that... and he cant afford to pay insurance on 4 cars... so im kinda mad... i want to start taking a LITTLE responsibility in my life and i cant... if my 26 year old brother started to save some of his fucking money insted of spending it all on pot, maybe he could stop wasting my parents money!!! i think i deserve their help more than he does!!!! GOD it fucking pisses me off... 

and i have 4 spanks to do because i still didnt send Daddy a picture of myself last night.... but that will probably be 8 spanks because i dont think i can get myself to take a picture tonight either