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March 4, 2005

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Today I am celebrating 19 years of continuous sobriety! I shall go to a meeting this evening so I can stick my hand up and say that in a room full of drunks like me. Woooooooohoooooooooooo: twirly dances all around, with confetti!

It’s the day five bit that’s driving me bonkers, but I have been reminded that if I just go through this, I won’t have to again … and after all, once I am through this, I’ll be on the other side of it, where the sunlight is waiting for me.

Some odd and nefarious sorts of whittery bits. Have a blessed, happy, joyous and freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee day!

Overwhelmed by a murky tide
holding on barely
so weak and I know what you say
is true but just now
it just doesn’t feel that way

Cracked open
this isn’t natural
not to me
not since before conception
have I lived this way

Psychological … you say
what am I but nerve endings
neural transmitters screaming
empty messages
terra cotta pot in pieces on a stone floor

Draw for me some illustration
illumination of what it looks like
on the other side

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CSM: Mother’s Day

The world is diminished
in its lacking the sparks in your eyes
poorer for your strong smile having left it
but oh what a fine legacy you left
your sparks shining in three-year-old eyes
your smile perhaps taking a spin on a small ride
in a mall in New Jersey

A special bond
how patient you are still
as the lover comes to you for answers
they come quiet and slow
gentle care is all she needs to know
across an uncrossable divide you teach her

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Eve of the day

When it seems less possible to bear
when thick and poisonous fluids ooze
more now than in any cold remembered
clean made grim
then surely I am walking toward freedom
then again her voice speaks the truth

Falling head first I let go anyway
freefall into the same unknown
crutches cast off at the edge of the world
eyes open and the smoke has cleared
everything flying up as I plummet
seen in a wash of shades and hues
blending toward some destination

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Poor guy

Carry on. :D:D

Armiel

March 5, 2005

*is all kinds of proud and happy for you* Cheering! *huge huge hugs*

Woman of many hats..

Congratulations on BOTH huge accomplishments! *hug*

Congratulations on both accomplishments (even though the one doesn’t feel so good right now). xo

wow that’s impressive. For sure if you could sock it to one, you can do the other. congratulations!

Congratulations you did it then, can do it now. Grrr….days become less. Oh but it’s not easy. I need a deserted Island to do certain things. As you so often say, we are human beans 😉 Warmest hugs

WooHoo!!! Yea you!!! Sober for nineteen years!!! Congratulations, Lioness 😀 And .. WooHoo for you getting through day five!!! You are doing it 😀 Amazing that you keep those whitters flowing so wonderfully and celebrate sobriety and all while getting free of smoking. You are fabulous! Hugs and Love,

Robin W

Great whitters! CONGRATULATIONS!!! You’re doing well. You’re doing SO well! The Buster story made me laugh. That’s exactly why I only get cat products with pics of cats that look just like Ming 🙂 Big Hugs,

First, congrats on the 19 years. Wow. That’s awesome!! I work with 3 people that decided to band together to quit smoking about 2 weeks ago. They are all doing really well. They’re using the patch and they say they’ve all tried before but couldn’t quit, and the patch is making a huge difference. Just in case you needed to know that. Take care and good luck!!

I’m not sure when I’ll be online this evening, I keep popping on and off between Saturday stuff, but I am sure as sure can be that I’ll be looking to huggle a fabulously sober and smoke free Lioness when I am on later 😀 I gotta go take B to the store and stuff and then I’m going to ride the bike and lift weights. Buncha Hugs and Love,

Gilraen Tinehtele

grabs the confetti and joins in the celebration! congrats on both achievments with lottsa coffee!

That “Onion” is a kill! 🙂 And as for you there is more than sunlight waiting for you. There is tastes and scents long forgotten that will delight you and no doubt serve as luscious analogies to treasured whitters.

Congrates no the 19 years too!!! 🙂

Somehow I think quitting smoking long-term has got to be not quite as difficult as the other thing. But then, what do I know? Anyway, congrats on the 19 years. You deserve to take a victory lap!

Starr418

Woohoo for day 5!!

Nectar

congratulations you must be so proud of yourself and day five thats the easy one just walk under the limbo stick and you will be there huge huggs lovely one

*hugs* 🙂

I am going to Rodger to heal in many aspects, I have an 8 year crack addiction to cut away, and the problem is I am managing the addiction too well, crack-heads go down very quick, I have managed to sustain the addiction… I need to get my life back!! Johan

Thanks for the note. My hand is always my Fantasy Condom! I always trust in it and it delivers.

redmoonrising

March 6, 2005

nineteen years!!! so proud of you. so today is the 6th? one day at a time my friend.

CharmingBilly

*justabigol’congratulatoryhugjustb’cuz*

Velvet Underground

wow! congrats hun *cuddles* what a wonderful achievement 🙂

March 7, 2005

*laughs* Poor doggy. 😉

Singing Nun

Well, I left you a congrats note and included how very proud I was of your 19 years – too bad OD didn’t save it for you. I will try again – although this whirly dance will be shorter.