lets talk about my panties now.

 

I don’t have any "normal" panties. so i’m wearing a "special" pair that i usually reserve for when a boy might see them. Though, as of late, even when a boy MIGHT see them, he doesn’t cuz i don’t even show them, they come off with the pants in one swoop. ha ha!

um.

anyway….

this "special" pair makes me have butt cleavage. You have no idea how much I’m tempted to take a picture of it. especially since my butt IS looking might fine. hahahahah. anyway, it’s making me really horny to know that i’m wearing special panties and i really want a boy to see them and take them off with his teeth.

 

ummmm.

so that brings me to the one thing that wasn’t awesome about RS and that is that I did EVERYTHING. He got to enjoy it ALLLL and while i had incredible orgasms and i got to suck dick (which I love a lot, do NOT get me wrong)… It was still a little one sided. and sure, while my body isn’t as exceptional as his and i might be a bit more aggressive, it is nice to have the boobies sucked and the legs caressed and stuff like that.

I dunno.

None of that happened.

Bleh.

and now i’m stuck on being able to once again dominate the entire experience. i can’t wait to tie his hands up and blindfold him. I can’t wait to tease the holy crap out of him until he begs me to let him free. I wanna whisper dirty nasty things in his ear and lick him on every sqauare inch of that amazing body of his. I can’t wait. I seriously want to do it now.

But that leaves me with very little to no loving. though, it might build up enough pressure to where he might… and if I gave him instructions to do certain things, he probably would…but I get the feeling he likes to be bossed around a little.

I can do that. I don’t mind being in control. But I think all girls wanna be ravaged and "taken" at one point or another. But I guess that isn’t what this is.

But I want it to be. I watched this video where the girl was just getting HANDLED and i liked it sooo much. And I want that. I don’t want to just be the handler. I might have to bring that up. He probably won’t. he likes getting all the attention. who told him he could be that way! oh wait, i did. hahahah. *sigh*

i want some attention. I guess I’ll have to ask for it. But I want him to just give it.

but this is more me coming at him like a wild beast with no leash. the dominant aggressive girl. I could tell him "do this now"….but it  just doesn’t beat being able to know you’re just THAT attractive to a person that they can’t keep their hands off you.

the most he did was grab me and rub my ass. which… as i said, is cool, cuz my ass is NICE right now. like totally rounding and cute-ifying. mmhmmm. go booty!

 

whatever. i liked it. i want more of it. what the hell am i complaining about again?

i don’t even know why i’m writing this.

LAME!

maybe i’ll just go take a picture of my ass… and send it to him…