lose myself
I’m walking around like i’m normal, but something about this is hitting me pretty hard.
I am internalizing EVERYTHING and I’m not sure it’s a good idea. I need to breathe, but it’s almost like i forgot how.
I’m going to dive into writing. I need to transport somewhere else for a while.
Sometimes i feel like I’d be judged, like "How can you write when you’re supposed to be emotionally upset?"
I don’t really have an answer.
it’s an escape.
but also a way for me to cope and deal.
I dunno.
I will miss my aunt so much, I should never ahve let so much time pass without seeing her.
it makes it all the more real how i need to treat my family.
My one older brother who I haven’t seen in years. Why not?!
What’s wrong with us?
We’re not fighting. we love each other.
I need to knit my family back together so that I can never feel this way again.
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Judged for writing when emotionally upset?? That is the best time to write girl! Sorry for your loss…keep writing! It helps
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*big hugs* I’m sorry you’re going through this. I wish there was more I could say or do for you. Writing helps a lot when you’re feeling this way.
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*hug* Writing is the one thing that actually helps me cope emotionaly, so I hope it’ll help you through this.
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I hope you aren’t feeling guilty for wanting to write. It sounds as though it’s good catharsis for you. Are you judging yourself for this or is it coming from another source? Everyone has different ways of coping with loss. You need to take care of yourself right now and do what feels right.
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No one should judge you for how you cope. When I’m sad or mad or just emotional, I read to take me somewhere else. I totally understand writing helping you cope. (((hugs))) I’m sorry people are being mean while you’re in mourning.
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I think it’s good that you are writing. You can’t just sit there numbed out, you have to keep yourself going and I’m glad that writing is helping you do that. I hope you and your family can become closer.
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How do you write…? Are you kidding? Who said you need a clear head to write? It can be a diversion, a catharsis, a way to process your feelings… Everybody copes differently. If you were engaging in dangerous, out-of-character behavior, I’d convey my concerns, but writing? C’MON!
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That’s actually the silliest reason I’ve heard about writing yet! Writing is not supposed to interfere with anything emotional and is in no way appropriate! I would laugh in the face of anyone who told me that! Honey, writing is one of the best therapies going out there! If you don’t talk a lot then write! Write to get it out! Write to provide emotions with release! Hell, I’ve been doing it all
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my life! It’s the main thing I had to keep me going! (And probably helped me from losing my sanity when I was with Jason!) So yes, writing is a big part of my life! I hope you decide to use it more. I really love reading you and knowing how you’re doing! Hugs. You’re in my thoughts hun.
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Sorry hun I meant is in no way inappropriate.
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People deal with stress and loss in different ways. If you need to write to help the healing process, then so be it and send all those haters my way.
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hugs.
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/hugs you big time Chris
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<3
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you need to do whatever it is that helps you through this.
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I think that is a great idea. I hope you start feeling better about things soon. Enjoy your life while you still get to live it.
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: ( big hugs
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<3
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We all grieve in different ways. Doesnt mean our hurt or pain is lesser than or greater than anothers. Do what you have to do to make yourself feel what it should and dont feel guilty about your emotions, whether you have a quiet moment to sit and chuckle. You’ll have plenty of times when you’ll want to cry.
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=( *mucho hugs*
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Everyone is leaving you e-hugs but I’m going to leave you an e-high five because high fives are fucking fun. Also an e-HI V, as in AIDS because I have them and you just touched me. You get it right, like HIGH FIVE, HI V, right? It’s… becuase you have 5 years to live or something. I don’t know. Sometimes I try to be funny and it doesn’t work.
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I wouldn’t have made it if I had not witten through the bad times in my life. At some points I wrote up to 4 entries a day. It’s when you stop writing that things are really, really bad. I hope you do get closer to your siblings. I love my brother so much but he’s also the one person who can piss me off the most — probably b/c I actually respect his opinion. But he’s the only sibling I have and I have never regretted any effort I have put into my relationship with him. I am so sorry for your loss. When I lost my Godmother it rocked me to my core. I didn’t even see her but 3 or 4 times a year, but some losses are just harder than others. *big huge hugs*
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Its Tuesday and I miss you! **Loves to you and yours**
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Putting your emotions down on paper helps. The jumbles of thoughts you have in your head become coherent. Slowly but surely it all starts making sense. Just like writing down your dream helps you understand it. Writing down your pain also helps you cope. Anyone that is judgemental because you are writing down how you feel, most likely don’t write at all.
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Everyone has their own ways of coping and overcoming emotional trauma. Most of my friends don’t really talk about anything with me, so writing is about the only outlet I have. Reading this makes me not feel alone with the process. I wish you the best and hope you can overcome this.
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