oh fuck you and your face

If you can’t tell by the title, I am ranting.

I am really REALLY REALLY upset… with…

MYSELF.

OMIGA. My brain is a fucking retard right now. I want to stab it. yes, stab my own brain. And slap it upside it’s brain head. and make it cry brain tears. and all the rest.

why?

BECAUSE MY NANO IS SUCKING A SUCKFACE SUCK!

I mean, honestly. I thought i had something. I was progressing. I had 300 words… and then… i tried to go back. I tried to use something I had written last night. and it poisoned it. It poisoned over 2k words that I just… deleted. *click* BE GONE YOU UGLY STINKY STUPID WORDS.

why do i KEEP GOING BACK TO SOMETHING THAT ISN’T WORKING?!

insanity, you brilliant fucker, insanity.

UGH!

So, here’s my plan.

1. Stop trying to write before lunch. It’s not working. I’m hungry. I can’t write on tea. this is obvious now. I should probably start eating breakfast again.

2. Eat a spicy chicken bowl for lunch and smile. Fuel the brain with delicious.

3. Go back to what was working this morning and FORGET THE FUCKING STUFF YOU WROTE LAST NIGHT. Yes, it was a waste of almost 2 hours and 4,000 lovely words… but they don’t work. They’re crap. This is not a Sweet Valley High novel about being a teenager who just wants to get a boyfriend and be popular and beat up Lila Fowler. NO! This is a book that is more than that. It’s deep and intense and you SAW WHAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE. So stop being a dummy and write SOMETHING ELSE. Stop writing about the damn beautiful platform shoes and the party and the fall and the brain injury and the rest. It’s not working. Scrap it or I’m going to or I’m going to kick you in the fucking teeth you cuntweasel!!!!

I did just call myself that.

It’s how I bring on the motivation!

so… after lunch I’ll try again.

I was doing so well until I tried to bring those goddamned shoes back.

ITS ALL BECAUSE OF THE SHOES.

this makes no sense.

bah.

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November 2, 2010

Yeah, I agree with [Dread Pirate Roberts] up there.

LILA FOWLER! Oh my god you just brought back many, many memories. You should copyright cuntweasel. Pure brilliance.

Beautiful406

Maybe you should take a full days rest of writing to clear your head. Maybe that will help! ryn: Thanks!

kirayamato

Along with the above noters I’ll add: Probably NOT Sweet Valley High from the sounds of it.

Night Owl

haha I hate to admit this but I used to read Sweet Valley high books eeeeee! That sucks about your writing being deleted. Maybe the world will seem brighter after a spicy chicken bowl.

Without Wings

SWEET VALLEY HIGH! omigah I loved that series! How about The Babysitters Club? I’d read that too 🙂

caty

bah, make the character barefoot and give ‘er! you can do it! and food definitely helps. i like to eat leftover halloween candy as i write.

I cannot wait to read what you’re writing!

I love author rants….LOVE THEM! *Takes the stupid damn shoes and runs off.*

K.Frances

Breakfast=good. Seriously. Oatmeal and coffee tagteam me every morning. Sometimes we swap with cereal or Omelet (but she takes FOREVER!). Either way, it’s a good way to get things kick-started. SVH=ICK. Shoes=Awesome. Why we no keep the shoes and ditch everything else? Today’s challenge: incorporate shoes AND the word “cuntweasel”!