The Lord of The Rings

 I own this series, the movies made from the books.  I read those books seven times by the time I was 25, twenty-five years ago.  I know the story well.

When K* came in February, she had not seen all of the story; the first three or four nights she was here, we watched each of the three movies and a lot of the "extras" on the DVDs.  I have seen the full movie several times.  I own it.

As I said, I KNOW the story.

"The Fellowship of The Ring" is on TV now.

Due to the brain injury I got in the car wreck in 1998, I have memory losses for my visual impressions.  I can own, like I do these three movies; I can see movies, and not fully remember what I have seen.

On the one hand, oh shit.

On the other, well, I can see movies I KNOW are "good" over and over and they will be almost "new" to me every time.

My visual memory was damaged in the wreck.

(let me remind you; it was not an accident.  I did not crash my car on purpose, that I remember, but I was drunk and furious, that my life was getting fucked over by the State of California.  Whiskey and anger do not mix well.  I did not crash my car on purpose, but I did not care then either, and awoke surprised in the hospital six weeks later)

Yet again in my life I had real reason to say, "It could be worse".

Some damage to my visual memory?

A VERY small price to pay for my life, returned to me.

Still, it is disturbing to KNOW that I have seen a movie, and not remember scenes.

*****