Interview practise

The Job Developer who VocRehab set me up with gave me some "interview practise" today and the consensus is that I will do well at any interview they give me.

"Smile, Be confident. Be positive. Do not bad mouth anyone or any former job. Don’t be "too honest", but don’t tell real lies"

They told me something that I’ve heard most of my adult life.  I have a good, soothing voice. (you can’t tell here, since this is text, but I do, really, and it’s nice to know that people still think so)

No problem, no worries. I can and will do that interview tomorrow, and while they probably won’t be stunned and hire me "right now", I will present and leave a good impression.

Presentation. That’s part of the why I feel like an "impostor". There’s even a condition, syndrome, whatever, called "Impostor Syndrome" where one feels that they aren’t "real", that what others see and think about one isn’t necessarily "the truth".  Presentation is, if not everything, is very important, and every time I leave my apartment, it’s all about how I am presenting myself to the world outside my door.

Well, I know that one well – I’ve felt like an "impostor" most of my life, but I will use it to make the best presentation of myself that I can. Sort of like, "if life gives you lemons, make lemonade", yes?

It’s like this. Most people think I’m really smart. I don’t think I am – yeah, I’m intelligent and well-spoken, but I don’t know about being "smart"; if I was, I think I would use that intelligence better than I have. I am well-spoken and "up" on current events (although I stopped watching the News on TV – it’s a manufactured product of the Corporate Party that owns and runs America (and always has, if you know your American history. Always has and likely always will)) because it was pissing me off.  I don’t need or want that.

I know what I’m talking about, or can fake it well, AND, I know what I don’t know, and live according to what my mom always said: "you’re not the only pebble on the beach". "Be considerate" "Don’t think you know everything". "Be self-confident, not arrogant".

I think we’re all in this together, that we should help each other. We are and aren’t animals, and it’s not a zero-sum game, I win, you lose. This would be a better place if we all worked together to make life better for ALL of us. I wouldn’t make a "good" animal, maybe, because I don’t believe that your loss is my gain, that winning a fight with you will get me more chances to breed, that "we", humans, do not have to live that way.

***

Hmm. Kinda far afield of what I started to write.

I think I can do well at this "care-giver" thing. I think I’ll do well at the interview tomorrow.

Hope so; the Unemployment runs out soon, and I want to keep my car and the life I have now – maybe even make it "better".

"Onwards" I say that because, for one thing, what else am I gonna do? Give up? Do "nothing".? Stay in "this" place?

Nope, I’m gonna keep going until I can’t anymore, or until I decide not to.

Either way, it’s "onwards", towards whatever’s out there. If, as I feel, I survived that wreck (15 years ago!) because I have "more to do", "onwards" is the only choice.

So, onwards it is.

 

*****