“I AM FINE!”

Everything is coming to fast and its killing me slowly inside. I still need to get 500 dollars for senior trip, 300 dollars as a down payment for college, and tons of other money along the way for my open house and for life in general. GAH! This whole growing up and having to actually have a life is no fun.

So yeah… yet again! Nick was going to move in somwhere and then it didn’t work out… this has happened about 4 times now… YES FOUR! And its starting to piss me right on off. The latest fall through was a really nice apartment which he has been aproved for it just turns out that the first payment will be over 1000 dollars and rent will be 500 bucks a month… which he could do but he would be really tight on cash and it doesn’t seem worth it. So yet again he will be looking for a place to live and if he doesn’t find a place soon he is probably going to move in here till he can get a place. JUNKY I SAY! Since all I ever worry about is how people see me first thing I think of is… well it seems like I have a junky bf that has to live with me cause he can’t support himself… which I know isn’t true but I’m retarded….

On a plus side I soon will be going for orientation up at LSSU and I will be getting my classes scheduled, I’m doing really good at school and I got me a kitten. Her name is Zoey and she is adorable… she has 6 toes on each foot so it looks like she has little thumbs. She follows me around a hell of a lot and she is my first pet that I really seems like she belongs to me and me alone.

As for the grades thing… I am thinking about being a doctor now... Not until after I become and nurse and get use to the medical career some more but then I am considering raising money to go back to college and then going back to becoming a doctor. It all sounds so nice now but I may change my mind along the way who knows.

I spose I’m going to go excersize as I watch dancing with the stars… FUN STUFF!