One step at a time..

Ever feel as if the world is on your shoulders and anymore pressure added will make it crumble to the ground? It’s an awful feeling. Nothing I can do but try to keep things balenced. But as much as I try, I get the feeling things will get worse. I hope I can get through it.

I know one thing.. I’ve got to stop letting eberything get to me. what ever happens, happens but I’ve got to change things for me. Being to stressed for to long can make you feel sick. I can’t explain it really. But i know the difference in how I feel. No I’m not depressed.. mad all the time yes.

So I’m changing the things I have control of and finally letting go of what I can’t.  In a few months I will be at the weight I want to be at and hopefully by Christmas have the car I want. then we’ll see whats next on the list.. Ok I’m going to go watch a movie :Phantom of the Opra and then Elektra. I might take a nap too…  I’m so tired. I’ll write more later.. maybe I’ll add a poem.

*hugs all around*  see ya

~Lily~