window.

it started when my phone turned off on a full battery and wouldn’t turn on even with it plugged in::::::…..

and i, in a frenzy, didn’t have my girlfriend’s number memorized, nor did i have it copied anywhere. so i took the battery out, put it back in, blowed on it several times. one such blow storm of dust in the battery cradle must’ve done it – because it eventually came back on. however, i was on myverizon looking at discount upgrades. i was THIS close to getting one, until i realized that the new every 2 year plan didn’t work on it (probably because i was looking for one with NO data package, and verizon’s too cheap to give me one that i’ll be eligible to upgrade in two years if i’m not spending my arm and leg on a data package). so i decided i’d take my chances with my new curiously on again off again device. nevertheless, i found my old phone and charger – and that’s when it happened.

when i reached up for a box of old junk in my room (because i remembered that’s where i put my old charger), a poster of 1 of my favorite bands fell down – signed and autograph. no, i’m not cool, i wasn’t at any of their concerts, my parents just did a special pre-order package once for one of their CDs and got a poster and sweatshirt for my birthday.

but it was my birthday in 2009, a month after my ex and i broke up.

for privacy purposes (however, if someone i knew around here got on they could probably tell who i am from my entries and interests already, but, humor me)

let’s just say the names are:

my ex = lizzie
other girl = andi
my girlfriend = grace

lizzie and i dated from about 2006 to 09. it was a long overdue break up, because we had been on again off again kind of anyways. nevertheless she was 2 years below me in high school, and when i found myself flirting more or less with a girl in my class (andi), whom i’ve had that "yeah i crush on her, but she’s out of my – wait – ABOVE my league" attraction with, i decided that if i’m looking at other girls, lizzie and i are done. so it was. and i had a crappy week, but i remember that same day i broke up with lizzie, i was texting away to andi.

that was in september, and by october (around my birthday), andi was coming over to the house to watch some ‘how i met your mother’ – a great show by the way…. it was… odd… with andi. the biggest reason, she wasn’t a christian… she worked at the local video rental store, and i was making it a habit to drop coffees off to her, come over there and help arrange DVDs with her, and do small talk, and all around be awkward and try to get to know her better without ever dropping the ‘date’ bomb. it was a good friendship, and i didn’t want to ruin it, and i was already out of a 3 year relationship that promised rings were exchanged in.

my brother.

ugh. well.. one such day we were at a restaurant, he, i, and my parents. he snatches my phone away, literally, and as i try to get it back from him he steals the number to andi’s phone. because andi was well known in school as being hot, and my brother still knows her, and age is not really a limit to his relationships. so, he’s playing around, i know he wants her though. she’s hot. and andi knows my brother’s reputation, and i don’t think would date him in a million years, nevertheless, irritating.

my brother doesn’t live in town, and lived 3 hrs away at a USAF base.

so i’m still being friends with andi. we made plans to eat out once, never happened. but still i’d drop by and talk to her at the video rental place here and there….

so one such monday night, i’m at youth group. i can’t remember – i think it was november… december? i don’t text anyone in youth group – i’m the stinkin youth pastor, and i don’t like the kids doin it so… but… it’s a game where i’m hiding, and i get this text from andi. we chat chit a little bit, and then suddenly, "uhm. i have to ask this, are you interested me, more than a friend? your brother texted me something."

face. palm.

waited till after youth group, and then lied, "yeah. well. i did. but i figured you didn’t like me back the same way, so i just dropped it, figured it wasn’t worth messin up our friendship over."

and she practically said, "yeah, well, good, because i don’t like you like that, and… okay."

awkward time.

i’m glad it didn’t go on like that.

meeting grace, and starting to date her – back in june of 2010 is when we started dating, and it’s been great….

just all a big window though, i thought about when i broke up with lizzie, or that awkward month or two with andi because of that poster – i got the same birthday, like a month after i broke up with lizzie…  odd what little items or things you’d never think would bring your mind to – does. lol.