Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

I can’t complain about the amount of things under our tree. The town and school did an awesome job. I am very thankful to them. This year, I spent about a hundred dollars on gifts. TOTAL. And that’s with three kids, and three secret Santa gifts.

I had an endometrial biopsy yesterday at 12:30. I was feeling like crap, and Marc dragged me to the Christmas Eve party that he KNEW I wouldn’t be happy at. He told me “Just come, sit on the couch or something, and do nothing.” So, I went, I tried to socialize a bit. I was miserable. Finally I sat down, and when I did, my friend started texting me, and she offered me a ride home. I took it, because honestly, I’d rather go home than see kids open gifts when I couldn’t afford anything for anyone. Once I sat down I was ignored. I couldn’t physically move children who were doing naughty things. Like my son climbing on the coffee table…

I came home, heated water, made tea, got my hot water bottle thing set, and went upstairs and watched “Masters of Sex” I’m on episode 7 or 8 now. It’s strangely addictive. I wanted Marc to watch it with me, but he’s always got “Better things to watch” So I said “Fuck you, I’m watching it anyway!”

He came home at 7:30ish with the kids. It took over an hour to come upstairs. And he didn’t ask me how I was feeling or if I needed anything. Then he brought the baby upstairs at 10, and gave me screaming baby.

This am? I woke covered in pee because someone… got drunk, while I was in pain.

I hope everyone has a better holiday than I have so far.

Blessings