change
i am sick of my life. i am sick of practically everything in it. but half the shit i cant change so easily. so i need to figure out how to change the things that i can change. thats mainly my appearance. i havent had my hair done havent had my nails done havent done anything like that. and sadly, for a girl like me, those little things will perk me up. spring sucks for me, i just want something different. i get so antsy.
soooooooo. here goes.
things to do:
- manicure
- pedicure
- eyebrows
- haircut
- hairdye
- clean room
- finish setting up room
- clean out laptop
thats my basic list of things that i can change and do pretty easily. if i get the first five done itll make me feel better about myself. the others will make me feel better about my life.
things that are harder:
- weight
- job
- career
- bills
- driving
- moving out
oh. and that whole weight thing? so i lose weight, not like crazy, from doing what i want when i want. this past week that i actually got my ass out of bed every day and walked 1 1/2 – 2 miles a day and watched what i ate, although not perfectly but still chose healthier choices when i had them, i ended up gaining a pound. so now im 227.
what. the. fuck.
im so freakin shot. i really am.