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• And so began the nightmare.

  April 11, 2025

  So, we didn't go to Egypt in September because one of our closest family friends was diagnosed with two different types of lymphoma. She survived and we rescheduled our trip for 3 weeks in February/March of 2024. It was an incredible trip. Then, in July my mom had a bit of a car accident in…

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• Chaos Walking

  August 17, 2023

  July 21st = miscarriage #2. End of July = appointments to confirm, etc and the rollercoaster of my hormones re-regulating. Plus, stupid in-law fuckheads doing some of their crisis melting down shit, including asking for money - which we would have sent anyway but it itches my ass that the stupid ...

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• lil nuggets of freak-out

  July 6, 2023

  I'm exhausted but, when I go to try to sleep, I cannot. My brain is very spacey and cannot focus on one thing for too long. I am not getting very much accomplished and feeling frustrated but also indifferent. My nips are brushing on everything and annoying the sh!t outta me. I am just a…

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• A Lot.

  July 5, 2023

  A lot has happened since my last post - and a lot of nothing at the same time. Sat around like a lump for a good 3 months; since, been hobbling around and going very slowly. I fell and broke my foot just before having to host Thanksgiving dinner for the 25+ people I didn't…

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• More Red

  September 25, 2022

  Really thought I was preggers this month. About 5 days before I was due to get my period, I had light pink spotting - something which is not normal for me. If I get spotting before my period it is usually only the day or so before, accompanied by cramps and dark brown stringy-looking. This…

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• Sadder than anticipated

  August 15, 2022

  The fifth baby (since quarantine) has been born today - that I probably won't get to meet for the foreseeable future. I paid $40 USD a week or two ago to have a fertility psychic tell me that I will get pregnant with a little girl in March-ish of 2023. That there may be a…

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• I look forward to exploding due to my intake of cheese.

  May 20, 2022

  The World Health Organization met today about the outbreak of Monkey Pox afoot on the globe. I stg if MP becomes a thing, I give up. I'm just gonna sell all my shit, set myself in front of the television and order drugs and food until I literally burst. I don't want to deal with…

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• Stupid Panini

  May 13, 2022

  Another period come and gone. We were kinda down about it. But trying not to focus on it. There are lots of reasons why pregnancy and kids would be negative to my health etc so if it doesn't happen there's likely a good reason. Not so down about it on a regular basis. Just slowly…

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• Probs Early Menopause

  April 27, 2022

  Despite my apps telling me to take tests, the tests have been negative. Well, one looked like it kinda had a line but the following day there wasn't a stronger line so our eyes must have been playing tricks on us. Still, for the past few days I have had The Worst gas and heartburn.…

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