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• Friends

  August 23, 2024

  Tonight, we had our neighbors over for dinner. They brought their little baby, who's 8 months old now, so they couldn’t stay too late. But honestly, it didn’t matter. Just having them around and enjoying their company made the evening special. They're such kind people. A bookmark in the story of ...

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• Solice

  July 5, 2024

  Today was different. I woke up to the familiar hum of the city outside my window. No grand revelations, no nothing, just everyday things. And it was enough. This morning, I found myself in the park, sitting on a bench beneath a tree. Its leaves whispered secrets of countless seasons. People walke...

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• Echoes of Absence

  June 21, 2024

  Every time I come here, it looks like a wasteland... Just no BEETHOVEN anywhere around...   no BEETHOVEN BEETHOVEN beethoven beethovn beethov ho ebt eeb ee e e   am i the only one ? why is it so much to ask for ?? cant we just give the damn mushrooms some fucking   BEETHOVEN  ???!!!!&he...

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• Moonlight sonata

  June 14, 2024

  This evening, I lay on the couch, listening to Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata on my headphones, when God came down and touched me… And it felt so… incredibly good… so good so good   but as i turn to you, my beloved friend, and hold you by the shoulder, i cannot tell you. i cannot tell…

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• Where would you like to be in 5 years

  June 7, 2024

  Where would you like to be in 5 years from today? In five years, I hope to be here... And as I touch my face, my skin feels soft... The form and texture, I enjoy touching... Also, being touched, softly on my face, is surprisingly pleasant.... Before I continue, I just want to tell you.…

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• Placeholder

  April 26, 2024

  There is something I want to say, not now, not today... I just feel so far away, drifting of. The reoccurring memory of my youth, sun setting in the laboratory of my father, the afternoon sun reflecting of the flasks... Could my life have been better? I miss the life I had.

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• you

  February 23, 2024

  I miss you terribly, babba.  My heart longs for you!

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• my best friend

  February 9, 2024

  A somber veil shrouds my heart, because for you my friend, our journey together ends here today. My heat is broken. You embraced life with such joy that I wanted nothing more than for you than to have it. Lying quietly there on the back seat now, motionless, our final trip together. Always fearfu...

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• Getting there

  January 12, 2024

  Have not quit my job yet, still in negotiations. I am sad to have disappointed you, but even more so, to have disappointed myself :-(. But today, I feel so good! It feels like, it feels like I am floating on top of a little tiny soft white cloud... It just feels so so incredibly…

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