my thoughts are as volatile as alcohol
and so is my existence
the day I go under there wont even be
a ripple on the pond to remind you of me

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Chapter 2: Growing Up

June 19, 2020
I grew up in a house with two sisters and three Carpenter CDs ;-p https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcLbS0yxzdk&list=RDdcLbS0yxzdk&index=1 Need I say more?  
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