Recent Entries

• Socially Desperate

  March 18, 2018

  11/11/2018 I want to take back it all.   July 15 I'm so desperately waiting to hang myself   Added May 18: Why am I only running back to this diary every time there seems to be a major life event...Why cant I write in my diary anymore without paying? 🙁     There were…

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• Icky

  March 13, 2018

  Where do I start?  I'm married for almost 11 years, I have 2 sweet precious kids 5,6 years old, I'm living with my parents until the end of this month before we move out of this home and I'm still that scared broken girl that started this diary when she was 14 years old.  Ive…

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• My babies.

  August 31, 2013

  I miss my babies. So. much. They are visiting Bens parents this week. Its been two days and I feel so empty.

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• goodnight?

  July 31, 2013

  When will I get enough courage to end my life? Maybe tonight.

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• Third Life

  July 16, 2013

  Ive been on Open Diary since I was 13 years old. My first diary was open to everyone who asked or to whomever found it online. I would give out links until I turned 16. When it was mid Junior year when my open diary caused problems between three friends of mine and I. We…

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• 11/29/2012

  November 28, 2012

  My husband doesn't understand me. He doesn't know what its like to be pregnant two years in a row. He doesn't know how crippling it is, or how to deal with untreated post partum depression. He doesn't know staying home 24/7 with a barely one year old that seems to be going through terrible twos.....

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• 11/04/2012

  November 3, 2012

  So after we found that mess on the futonand a day of crying while being sick we kept on with life...well benny did while I was still puking bed riddened and dehydrated from the puking we ended up moving back in with my parents in june of 2011.I lost75 pounds by then and when the…

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• 11/03/2012

  November 2, 2012

  Up so early can't sleep I woke up benny because I thought someone was lurking around the house turns out it was the neighbor coming in from a fishing trip. The baby is kicking my insides hardcore and it feels like contractions but I'm not sure...A look back I never been to vocal about my…

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• is it tax time yet?

  November 1, 2012

  Crisp November evening. I am 30 weeks pregnant with my second and last baby. Hormones are most likely off the charts, my husband is a doll for washing bottles I guess I should help out in a few...I'm due mid January and we are so broke its ridiculous. My husbands current job is paying two…

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