I am me. I live in South West Coastal Florida. I use my diary to bitch, and to dream. I also catalogue what's going on, for future reference.
Still trying to convince myself that I'm not crazy.

I pay to be here now and you bet that I'm not walking away again without a fight.

Latest Entry

Covid Sucks but its not Covid

January 14, 2022
How does a hospital function in this day and age without electronic documentation? Mom was in a home accident and broke her back. After staying in the hospital she was released with a handwritten medication list directing her to the pharmacy indicating a pain prescription was sent electronically....
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Recent Entries

  • No, not Y O U…
    July 1, 2021
    Weddings. Barbecues Birthday Parties Girls night Game night Movie night Casino run Dinner Lunch Brunch The beach The bar The mall Fishing To just hang out You didn't invite me. You'll never apologize and I'll never tell you how hurt I am. When you need money, or a place to stay, someone to entert...
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  • Because I HATE hospitals…
    June 12, 2021
    Here I sit watching my mother sleep. Its comforting knowing she is safe and has no choice but to be cared for. Shitty way to get a day off though. She takes care of my grandmother. My grandmother aka "the ancient one" per my nephew is not able to live alone anymore. I think she…
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  • Number 6 always wins…
    October 5, 2020
    I had a very vivid dream while I was napping today. I had 5 escargot to hold for you inside of a paper cone made out of florist paper filled with beach pebbles. I knew you wanted this and I went through so much deliver for you. To you. Or maybe it was my idea…
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  • Broken little girl 1
    June 17, 2020
    There is a little girl who is broken. She sends me text messages because she needs someone to reach out to. She was my sons first 'girlfriend" and I hated that his heart went out because he is a hero. He is a nurturer. He saw her pain and tried to lift her spirit, but…
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  • I write when I don’t want to go to bed.
    June 17, 2020
    Im not sure what i expect to see when I check my email. I look everyday at this inbox full of crap and see that none of this mail is actually for me. Its all a hook, a dreary tale of friendless ebay receipts and sale ads and offers for vacations that I know I'll…
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  • I write when I am sad
    May 28, 2020
    Putting this out there because it has been nagging at me all day. James is moving up from 8th grade. He's worked hard to do well in school. Makes Honor roll, band, PTA, volunteers, helps, Other students, etc. Im very Proud of him. Since we have been out of the classroom he developed mono and…
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  • Honey I’m home!
    May 28, 2020
    Holy shit. I am sooooooooooooo happy to find OD is back online. So much to say... Just as my replacement journal ate itself and deleted literally everyfuckingthing ive written over the last several years... I have so much to tell me! Wait for it... Wait...  
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  • In this fog, I think
    May 27, 2012
    Love cannot be unrequited if the one you love never existed. My fantasy had a face, and my memory is better with all the haze. The first time was really the last. When he held my hand it was only to lead me away. When he sang to me it was only a song. When he…
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  • Why is it?
    July 27, 2010
    Why is it that when I can't sleep and my eyes are weary that I feel the need to write? I can barely stay awake, but yet I can come here for a few moments and the words flow out of my hands like they have been waiting forever. I've been sad and I want…
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