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needs.

April 26, 2018
Sitting in my least favorite place, I ask for a softness to overcome my heart that becomes hardened by the chaos and the attitude and the neediness. I don't know what else to do so I pray. Father, I know a lot of these people come from dark places, please be the light in their…
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