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• Food

  August 5, 2021

  I am forgetting about it again.  It is what got me in this predicament. Day #2. No food.  Water.  That is all.  Very easy to hide. "I ate dinner at work"  Thanks, but I am not hungry. Good God.   Is this a feeling disorder?

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• Paranoia will destroy ya

  August 5, 2021

  I've done something bad.  I was on sick leave and started to get behind on my bills.  So, I took two credit card offers.  The man of the house now knows about one of them.  I sign in to my accounts incognito.   But, he found out because my niece went to the store one day…

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• Day shift.

  July 31, 2021

  Mine begins at 3;30- 3:40 ish in the morning.   Because I live an hour from work.  I get up in the middle of the night, I feel. So why not go back to my night shift? Why?  I was promised my night shift.  Counting my day shifts down. Now.  I walk into work this morning…

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• Well.

  July 17, 2021

  For goodness sakes.   I got so involved in this show on Netflix.   Virgin River.  It is something like i never, ever watch.  I call it "cry baby shit." Never been in touch with the touchy, feely  kind of stuff.  Romance.  I don't believe in it.  Never have.   I get it.  The whole thing. Does it&h...

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• Seriously?

  July 15, 2021

  I have many things to talk about.  Very first thing of business.   I am talking to a man that I met many moons ago.  He is my very.  Very attentive, attractive, kind, gentle, beyond everything, that matters.  So kind.  And I am so glad to be in touch with him again.   And we met right…

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• And that is how.

  July 14, 2021

  Where I live, it is normal.  People say "That's how" all the time.  It is one of those things we pick up.  Work is going great now.  I had a few bad days but I feel better and I really like my purpose.  I take care of those that need.  It feels good.  Like myself…

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• I did it.

  July 3, 2021

  Thursday I sat my alarm for 3:30 a.m.  I live an hour away from work.  If I don't leave two hours ahead of time, I panic.  I literally will have a full-on panic attack.   I do not know where this comes from.  Never been able to figure it out.  I strictly abide by the rule…

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• The day before

  June 30, 2021

  It has been my doctor's habit to email me, via the Kaiser system, just a day or two before I go back to work.  Since I'm on leave, I visit her often.  Usually she extends the leave based on her  professional advice.  The last 3 times I checked the email only to find that she…

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• Alert and oriented x 3

  June 27, 2021

  Yep.  That's me.  Very alert this morning for some reason.   That could be the coffee talking. Last night, something happened.  My partner and the ass that lives here decided they were going to a buddy's house to play cards.  They get together somewhat often to play this Magic the Gathering game....

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