Recent Entries

• I met a boy who lights my cigarettes…

  May 1, 2013

  Not lights them in a sense of 'Oh, you have a cigarette in your mouth, let me get that', but more of a 'Let me light this and give it to you, and then I'll light mine...'. It matters because his scent is on that first drag and lingers, then fades away....but the sentiment is…

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• Too EXCITED for a clever title to a random entry *

  April 24, 2013

   I don't think I've ever been this excited to get the fuck out of Dodge. In the aftermath of the separation things have been oddly calm ~too calm~ and the fact that he is being so fucking nice to me drives me mad. This would be so much easier if he hated me. You know,…

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• This is My Kingdom Come

  March 5, 2013

  So here I am, and here you are. You may be just you. You may not be in the hundreds, or tens, or even ones, but if you're here, hey thanks. I have been listening to 'Demons' by Imagine Dragons on repeat the last few days, and I suppose there isn't a song in recent…

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• Lord have mercy on my rough and rowdy ways

  March 1, 2013

  Write an entry. Yeah, fucking write an entry. I would give just about anything for a cigarette right now. Maybe because I so badly want something in my mouth, but mostly because writing and smoking used to go hand in hand for me. Now that one of those hands is chopped off the other has…

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• It’s Friday, I’m in Love

  January 19, 2013

  It isn't Friday, and I'm not in love. But it is the song that is currently playing on the radio, and I always fuss at the end of my entries about the title, so I just thought I'd get that shit over with. I owe Open Diary an entry. I've recently returned in search for…

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• I Open my Mouth to a Silent Scream

  December 25, 2012

  My words don't work. So I'll let Adam do it for me. Again. Thanks Dad, it was such a Merry Christmas... '...for... Drunken fathers, and Stupid mothers, and Boys who can't tell one girl from another So she takes her pills, Careful and round One of these days she's gonna throw the whole bottle...

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• I’m like Heinz up in this bitch!

  February 14, 2012

  Get it? Ketchup? CATCH UP!? Ah, I kill myself. Did I just blow your mind, or what? If any of you have followed me for any length of time, you know I come and go more than Debbie in her Dallas days. It's just how I roll. I usually get some dumb notion in my brain…

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• The Big C

  January 17, 2011

  I pretty much want to tell the world ~and everyone in it~ what I think about them right about now. Cancer fucking sucks. I won't sugar coat it. My Mom has been battling brain cancer for about 3 months now. She went through 15 days of whole head radiation and the side effects have kicked…

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• If It Be Your Will

  January 15, 2011

  I've always been in love with you. I took a really long shower tonight. I was cold, and it felt good. I ran the water until my fingertips got gooey, my toes went numb, and my water heater was sick of my shit. This day feels like it has gone on forever. It didn't go…

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