I started Open Diary way back in 2004 when my son was an infant and my daughter was a toddler.. I was also active duty at the time. That was a very long time ago and a whole lot has changed. I am now going on 41 years old, my son is going to be 18 this September and my daughter and I are estranged after a very long battle with her and her mental health issues left our relationship strained. I am now a grandmother without a grandson. Its a sad a sorrowful tale I don't really talk about, it is far too painful.

As for the military I was honorably discharged in 2005 and have been a disabled veteran since 2007. Since then until very recently I was well over 270 pounds something I resigned myself to being after being told by my toxic family was something that was simply in our genes. I'll get into that too.

I have been married to my current husband since August of 2002, our marriage is by no means perfect but it works, if it didn't I would have kicked him to him to the curb many years ago. But here I sit going on 19 years still married to the man, who has diabetes now and battles his own anxiety demons after trying to help me with my PTSD and depression or so many years. (thank you ex husband for the parting gift your abuse gave me).

So why haven't I written sooner or even come back...well for one I haven't had a laptop really for quite some time, I've been on mobile devices (iPhone, iPad, Apple Watch).... no keyboard...I can't stand hunt and peck).

And I'm not on social media. So I'm here.

Latest Entry

We Didn’t Start The Fire

May 1, 2021
So.... Moderna Day 4---shot 2: Arm pain has subsided for the most part... I was feeling chilled and thought, eh maybe it's cold in the house but noticed my son and my husband seemed to be not feeling chilled... okay... I didn't take anything besides my normal morning medication (Celebrex, Corlano...
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Recent Entries

  • Hot In Herre…
    April 30, 2021
    Moderna: Second Shot: Day 3 My arm feels a lot less painful... That much is an improvement. However... I have had a blistering migraine/headache all damn day that Tylenol has done very little for .. I cannot take any NSAIDS since I take Celebrex for my arthritis... and stuff like triptans do not ...
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  • Moderna : #2–Day 2
    April 29, 2021
    I honestly felt fine the day after I got the first covid vaccine... I did yoga the day after (45 minutes as a matter of fact), yeah my arm was a little sore but I powered through it...I had a mild fever a couple days after but I felt fine... so I figured when it…
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  • Sorry Not Sorry
    April 24, 2021
    I honestly expected my pyschobitch neighbor to come over with hellfire and damnation this evening after we had the house pressure washed this afternoon since some of the water sprayed over onto her back patio... quite a bit actually.  Not that the guy who did it or anyone else can control which w...
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  • Insane
    April 22, 2021
    OH MY GOD!!!!! So I'm just trying to relax... it's my birthday.. it's bad enough I had to drive over to the VA and get a pre-dental covid test on my birthday... so I had to do a shorter 30 minute yoga exercise this morning... but I thought I was going to have a nice…
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  • Mr Blue Sky
    April 17, 2021
    It's Been quite a busy day... several days... I don't always get to writing every day.  Not like when I was on here before, where I would often write an entry every single day (today's entry title is brought to you by Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 2 btw... it's on USA right now and…
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  • Thinking Out Loud
    April 14, 2021
    Been a busy couple of days... I can say that much... yesterday I didn't accomplish much... truly.  I got my exercise in.. closed all my rings on my Apple Watch (which I do every day)..so that's not saying much... my husband and I got in a bit of a tiff last night over my weight…
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  • It’s Been a Hard Day’s Night
    April 13, 2021
    Talk about a long damn night...   My husband and I did a lot of landscaping and yard work the last couple of days.... we planted some canna Lillies no the side of the house and three ground cover roses in front of my knock out roses in the front flower bed of the house.....…
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  • Maximum Overdrive
    April 9, 2021
    So far its been a very dry April. We haven't really gotten rain at all.... we were supposed to get rain on Thursday, it got pushed back to today and now it's been pushed back to tomorrow night.... there are drawbacks to living on the coast I suppose.  There are many drawbacks actually (especially...
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  • So Now I’m Back, From Outer Space
    April 6, 2021
    Its been so long since I've been on Open Diary, my first couple of entries were in all honestly test entries... and I didn't get many hits and I really didn't come back to check cause an iPad isn't a good source for writing here.  It's been a few years hasn't it.  Many trials and…
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