Recent Entries

• 09/29/2013

  September 28, 2013

  12:42 am In my last entry, which I had to go back and read so I would know what's happened since then. I actually enacted my plan to make things better. I won't necessarily say that it worked because I'm still uneasy when it comes to Crystal, but I am better able to handle things.…

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• 08/08/2013

  August 7, 2013

   I realized tonight that I can't take care of other people and then take care of myself. I spent part of the night counseling my friend David, came home and counseled my friend Bridgett and then had to deal with some of my own emotions of completely unrelated topics. I can't do it anymore. I...

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• 07/08/2013

  July 7, 2013

  I wish I could go back in time and tell Erika what Crystal's going to do and what she's going to say. I wish I could tell Rachel that, even though we are doomed, she needs to stay away from Crystal. I wish I could go back in time and stand up, provide proof that…

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• Father’s Day

  June 15, 2013

   Happy Father's Day to anyone who still reads this and is a dad doing it all, mom doing it all, or a dad sharing equal responsibilities.  Five years ago today, I was either at work or at the hospital. It was not a good time for me, but I didn't know. My dad was in…

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• 05/21/2013

  May 20, 2013

   My heart is breaking. Moore, Oklahoma was devastated by a horrific twister. I spent at least an hour trying to make sure Rachel's kids were okay. Two elementary schools were hit. One has all students/staff accounted for. Second school, not. They may have lost pre-k thru third grade. At leas...

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• 05/09/2013

  May 8, 2013

   12:43 pm - listening to: "I Run To You" by Lady Antebellum   Had an awesome birthday party on Saturday with a few good friends and a couple new friends. Everyone got along well enough, there was zero drama between Rachel and Kesha. Tiffany even seemed to enjoy herself. Rachel...

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• One person…

  April 21, 2013

  11:33 pm - listening to: "wide awake" by katy perry Today hasn't been a terrible day. I realized I was sitting in the rocking chair and telling myself "my life doesn't suck, not in the least bit" and I don't know why I even had to tell myself that. The job market sucks, truth....

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• Labels suck

  April 13, 2013

  9:43 pm - watching: despicable me I love this movie. This is the second time I've watched it since February. It takes me back to some happy times in my life. Rachel and I had a really good talk last night. I wish I could remember more of it. And she shared a picture with…

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• Disassociation

  April 10, 2013

  4:08 pm - listening to: falling up "falling in" I haven't heard this song in years...and I'm not exaggerating. I probably haven't listened to it since 2006 or 2007. Okay, let's do this. I've seen Rachel almost every day since we started talking nearly a month ago and it's been great. We...

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