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• 29/10/2020

  October 29, 2020

  I'm flat again. But this time really, really flat. It's 6.50pm on a Thursday evening and I'm considering simply going to bed right now because I'm practically asleep already. I had a date tonight. I ended up cancelling at about 3ish this afternoon- the thought of travelling all the way up to cent...

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• 28/10/2020

  October 28, 2020

  So my mental health has been weird this morning. Dad's over here at the moment, putting up lights in my hallway and lounge. They're pendant lights and so need the attachments which hold the bulbs at the moment need to be taken out and replaced with new ones. Is therefore slightly trickier than si...

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• 27/10/2020

  October 27, 2020

  Went out with mum to B&Q this morning to pick up lamp-shades, and ended up finding a nice table that will go well in the hallway next to the bookcase. Then got home just in time for my psychology appointment at 1pm, which went well. We're still talking about the self-compassionate work, and a...

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• 26/10/2020

  October 26, 2020

  I still feel flat. Perhaps less thin than last week. As I sit here I'm aware of this space, external mainly, as if the quiet of my flat takes on its own quality although it's not negative. AArgh I just wrote like a paragraph, and then it deleted itself. Annoying. Now I have to decide…

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• 21/10/2020

  October 21, 2020

  I feel flat this evening- in fact most of the afternoon and into the evening. I just watched the David Attenborough docu on netflix about the climate emergency and had a little cry. It finished and spent ten mins following every single environmentally focused group on Instagram. I might also find...

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• 20/10/2020

  October 20, 2020

  Sitting - striding - through the day, there are so many threads, threads which billow out into ribbons, lengths of soft material which are to be followed. I sit and feel these weave their way through my minds eye, as if they are waiting for the needle head of my cperspective to pick them up.…

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• 18/10/20

  October 18, 2020

  I've just watched The trial of the Chicago 8, and am left feeling simultaniously fired up and deflated. It's always the same when I'm watching films like this, or after reading books, articles etc. I wish I'd been born in the 60's, in America- I don't think the movement was as massive here althou...

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• 16/10/2020

  October 17, 2020

  Where is my mind? I have a wordpress blog which I used to write in fairly regularly but have stopped doing so in the last year or so. I'd write some articles about mental health, some about writing and some about day to day issues. As time went by I started to think I used…

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• 8/10/2020

  October 8, 2020

  I finally lost weight. This may sound superficial but I swear to God there's nothing more demoralising and consequently depressing than eating right, avoiding everything you want foodwise for two weeks and not actually lose anything. Every morning I get on the scales and have to avoid hurling the...

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