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21/02/2021

February 21, 2021
It feels as though Spring is in the air. Yesterday and today the sun has been making semi regular appearances, yesterday for short periods of time but today the sun has mostly been out all of the time so far. I'm feeling quite good. Haven't had a drink for a week now and plan to…
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