Recent Entries

• It doesn’t matter if I love you

  February 25, 2023

  Because I do. But I’m learning to love me more. I want you to love me just as much. But I have already learned this painful lesson the hard way. You’re showing me how little I matter so I will continue to love you As I learn to let you go

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• Shhh. It’s a secret

  January 26, 2023

  I’m trying to be good. But I don’t think I actually mean it. I already regret the time I’ve lost with him. I don’t think it will change how I feel anyway or make it any worse if I do sleep with him. I want to tease him so bad,.. there’s one thing he can…

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• Say the thing

  January 8, 2023

  Life is so short and precious. I just want to tell you i love you

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• Not just tonight

  September 23, 2022

  I miss you But this isn’t a new feeling The loss of you Something I wear every day Today, it’s just a little heavier than the day before

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• Not ok

  September 15, 2022

  I am not ok. this week at work has been rough. i am peopled out. I can’t figure out what to say or not say. im hormonal, so that’s just the fun sherry on top. Im screaming and crying on the inside and I just want to hide away until the storm in my brain…

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• Safe with you

  September 13, 2022

  I just want to crawl into your lap To feel your arms wrap around me Knowing I’m safe Your hands will stroke my hair your beard scratch my face and I won’t care because you are there And I am finally where I belong

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• I wish I could tell you

  August 4, 2022

  I love you I love the way you and me feel safe I love the way you make me feel heard I love the way you make me laugh The way you look at me And even through me See all of me I love you I think I always have

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• It’s you

  July 13, 2022

  I sat in my feels with music tonight while I played ever merge. I shared my playlist with you. Yes. It has all the feels. most of them you might think we’re about the husband I am divorcing. But you would be wrong. Only a couple are for him. The majority are for you. when…

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• Learning to listen

  June 8, 2022

  Listing to live music on TikTok and it’s so relaxing. Reminds me that I’ve had a lot to say in the last week. There are a lot of changes going on, at work, at home. But I’m learning to listen again- to myself, to Quinn, and James. I want to find a way through this…

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