I was 'durdinah' in the past. I struggled picking up where I left off.
'Dzhan' means: soul.

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Axis of Revival

September 3, 2020
To reinvent.  Become again.  This has eluded me.  Grown worse over time... and I do not know what I am seeking, nor do I know for sure anymore how to seek it.  Palingenesis, come to me, to the pew on which I sleep. Hear me!  Hear my plea! ... Love waned and months.  Months slipped…
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    Why Have You Come Here
    July 19, 2019
    Years past, I awoke cold and wild in the all consuming darkness of my bed and my room and night.  And ocean of waves that swept over me with the vision of a young woman I'd known walking away, reflecting below and being lifted away by a multitude of hands.  We touched one another's hair,…
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    When Nothing Else Will Work
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    Whatever it may have been that I had done wrong, whenever it was, to this day it remains unknown.  I've searched my mind, our past, for nothing.  Or very little in the face of the change that came. There was a single seat, amongst a throng of people, bustling about us.  I can be nothing…
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    At The Well
    May 23, 2019
    It's alarming, unknown to me, how somewhere the memories mutter and some fade.  Some disagree.  Some approach nearly faded and speak to me. Quiet apparition, names once spoken, beds we once shared.  Bodies and tears.  Where I found gladness unprotected.  So often, I don't remember. Clouds gathere...
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  • Excerpt: Where I’ve Been
    May 17, 2019
    I've felt guilty for not being by for so many weeks now.  It seems like one thing after another has fallen into a place in the entirety of the puzzle that is a life.  It's nothing that has been particularly bad or worth complaining about, in fact, the real reason for so long an absence…
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    Geologic
    April 18, 2019
    So many are the colours, the patterns, in he sedimentary stones before me.  They are what once was, all bound together.  Plant and animal a part of what is seen.  Weather and water and life gave birth and so was dispensed and locked within.  Then eroded. Even we have come from stone.  Maybe one d...
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    Over Malady of Drifts
    April 11, 2019
    It's with a steady passage into lethargy I came to this night.  It's with the unique loneliness that comes with night and a blizzards face.  The cold sweeps in, the phones are quiet on their hooks.  I crush oranges to make a drink with bitters and bourbon, in hopes the worst will pass beneath the...
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    Feral Phases of the Moon
    March 29, 2019
    There has been a full moon all week long. Strangers come to my doorstep asking for a ride into town.   The clouds weep and the tears pour out in rivers over the earth, far too saturated to bear more. A friend wrecks his car in a field, and I was right there.  Knowing nothing…
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