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February 17, 2018
This is a diary. I’m sharing my deepest thoughts. NO ONE on this planet knows about the feelings I have for the man in my previous post. I don’t talk to anyone about it. And I do love my husband. But we love each other like friends. There is no intimacy. No passion. No kissing.…
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Recent Entries

  • The one who got away…
    February 16, 2018
    I can’t be the only one who yearns for the one who got away. My heart still flutters when I think of him. The man who I can never be with. It started 15 years ago. It was amazing. Everything was amazing. He was amazing. I loved him hard. I still lOve him. It just…
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  • Drivers test
    February 16, 2018
    So my youngest child is taking his drivers test today. He’s sooooo nervous! I’m so nervous! Oh Lord please let him pass. This is my 3rd kid and last, that I have taught to drive. Omg it’s not easy lol! He’s a decent driver I think he’ll do fine. The worst part comes after though.…
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  • School shooting
    February 15, 2018
    I’m so heartbroken. Another mass casualty school shooting. I pray for these kids and their families. 17 families lives shattered. I have a son in high school, I literally tell him sometimes when he gets out of the car in the morning what to do if there is a shooting at school. Sad. I saw…
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  • Family? What family?
    February 13, 2018
    So since my mother has passed away 9 months ago, my brother has become a complete asshole. He’s my mom’s executor for her estate. The only time he communicates with me or our sister is about money. Only through text. He married a girl from a wealthy family. She’s a complete bitch who thinks she’s...
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  • Oh mom, I miss you
    February 11, 2018
    Damn it. I miss my mom. I miss you mom.  I need you. I mis every. Single. Thing. About you! I just want to hug you, I want to feel safe in our embrace. It hurts so much today. My first birthday without you is close. Please be there. Please come to me in my…
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  • Confession/confusion
    February 10, 2018
    So idk if I’m using this OD as a diary or more like reddit. I don’t know. Anyways, I’ve been with my husband 14 years, married for almost 8. We have what I would say is a strange relationship. It’s both our second marriage. I was married early at 20,the first time. Left him at…
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  • Entry 3
    February 9, 2018
    Ugh. I wake up with anxiety so much! It’s a terrible feeling. I’ve actually been up since 3:45. I have a 22 yr old son, 19 yr old daughter, 17 yr old son and 16 yr old step son, who lives with us. As well as a 28 yr old step daughter who has 6…
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  • Entry #2
    February 8, 2018
    So I did talk to my son about his drinking yesterday. I think he listened. I hope he took it to heart. He didn’t drink last night. I’m just going to keep on top of him about it. What else can I do? Pray about it, I will ask God to guide him in the…
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  • My first entry
    February 7, 2018
    Feeling uneasy today. My son is 22. He recently broke up with his girlfriend. He’s been going out and drinking every night. Like throwing up drunk. I need to have a serious conversation with him. There is alcoholism in my family. I’m getting really worried about him. He’s always been my wild chil...
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