I'm the quiet one. The one people forget about. Just putting thoughts down. Trying to make sense of my own head and the world around me.

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My kids

January 18, 2019
So Monday DCS tracked me down. They've been trying to track me down for a while. Gave me a lot of details about my kids and my ex. I found out that my ex was resisting giving out my details. Not wanting DCS and the other agencies working with her and the kids to contact…
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Recent Entries

  • The math
    January 18, 2019
    I make 15.63 an hour. An average pay period is 88 hours. After taxes, insurance for me and 8 kids, benefits, and child support I have 390 left. I also drive for Uber and Lyft. Doing everything I can but I'm still coming up short. It's very frustrating. Makes days hard. I'm having to go…
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  • Burn
    January 9, 2019
    This fall has been hard. My living situation has been unsettled. So much taking up my time. Got out of my exercise routines. Trying to get back now. Get ready for some vintage base ball. I'm out of shape.
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  • Time?
    January 2, 2019
    We are the only things in the universe that care that it's 2019. The planet doesn't care. Animals don't care. God doesn't care. The stars don't care. #timedoesntmatter.
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  • Me time
    December 30, 2018
    I haven't done much today. I had some plans but I haven't accomplished much. I tried to get on with my day but I just didn't have the energy. I feel like I'm decompressing today. I need a day off. I haven't taken much time to me lately. I just work and work and work.…
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  • forward
    December 30, 2018
    I met her last spring. At the time it was something more casual. We were trying to be friends and a little extra. And we did that. It was good. The happiest I'd been in a long time. It was a time and a place where i could let go. I could take off the…
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  • to date
    December 30, 2018
    In September my divorce was finalized. It was a break that was a long time in coming. It was the formal end of a relationship that ended a long time ago. There was a lot that built up to it. I can't say that I did anything less than my best to make the relationship…
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  • Keeping up
    November 11, 2018
    I tried texting the bishop in her Ward today. I asked for updates on the kids. And I asked about Jonathan being in the ER. The bishop called me back and after a bit rambling told me that he can't be in the middle. And intimated that he didn't want me to get anyone else…
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  • Contact
    November 9, 2018
    So the divorce was finalized in September and now the OP has expired.  I finally feel like it's safe to reach out and get information I need so that I can start fulfilling the requirements in the divorce so that I can get to have time with my kids. I sent an email to my…
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  • Catching up
    October 13, 2018
    It's been a long while since I wrote last. A lot has happened. I've moved a couple of times. I was living in an apartment where the people who I was renting from broke so many rules that the landlord kicked everyone in the apartment out. It left me in a crunch and I had…
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