Language is a skin: I rub my language against the other. It is as if I had words instead of fingers, or fingers at the tip of my words. My language trembles with desire. - Roland Barthes

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Solidarity / Being Out

November 2, 2020
Mania. Mania. Up down All around Depression Crash and Burn it all down Again. And again. Rinse and repeat. What year is it? ———— My almost 18 year old daughter came out several weeks back and all she asked of me was to please spread the word to the family and not to buy her…
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