name: sandra, sandy
date today: december 11, 2017

actually started in open diary in september of 1999. joined when there was only free open diary. wasn't sure i was gonna pay to write but decided i would in jan. of 2002. i paid for a lifetime membership at that time.

moved from new hampshire to tennessee august 20 of 2017 for very personal reasons. i lived with my sister and her husband til i found a place of my own. i moved into my own place, a nice quiet apartment, on may 1, 2018. i like living here. for the most part, it's quiet and peaceful.

jason, my son, died in a car wreck on january 22, 1994 in colorado. he was 20 years old. it will soon be 25 years since he died. it's still hard to accept.

raymond, my husband of almost 20 years, died june 15, 2008 of cancer. he was 58 years old. he had cancer for over a year and we thought it was gone but it came back and killed him. i've had a difficult time accepting that he's truly gone and isn't coming back. the changes i'm making are hard considering they probably aren't ones he would have made. but, i have to live my life now the best way i can. i have to do it one day at a time.

raymond and i had 2 cats but zelda and maynard are both at the rainbow bridge waiting for me, i hope!

and now, i have my own little dog. her name is daisy mae and she's probably between 11 and 12 years old. i say that cause i don't have an idea how old she is. when i got her the vet said she was between 2 and 3 years old. anyway, i rescued her. she was taken from a woman in arkansas who abused her and threatened to kill her. she stayed at a rescue group for two months there and was sent to new hampsrhire to a foster mom where she stayed for a month. i saw her at a pet food store on a sunday. filled out an application to adopt her that day and she came to live with me two days later. we've never been happier. can't think of a single thing she does that's not perfect. i love my daisy mae!!! we are family!

i have a most wonderful 21-year-old grandson, Blake. what a wonderful young man! just thinking about him makes me smile. he's working at an insurance agency in NH. he works for Cross Insurance in new england. he says he likes it but, we'll see how it goes after he's been there a while. he will be trying to sell business insurance to places he just walks into or calls and makes an appointment. cold calls are hard. but, he's got the gift of gab and i think he'll make a go of it, if that's what makes him happy and he ends up liking it. he's been there now for about 10 months and seems to enjoy the freedom he has to come and go as he pleases as long as he does his job. he calls me on his drives to see his girlfriend who is going to school at UCONN. i love our conversations.

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November 18, 2018
  good morning, Daisy went about 12 hours without peeing. she pooped a bit on the pads but, didn’t pee. i made her get up and took her outside to pee. not sure why she waited so long but, i feel better now that she’s peed. if only she’d do that every night!! she might do…
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    November 18, 2018
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    November 14, 2018
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    hi, and that’s exactly what kind of day it is. it’s raining, and the rain is cold, so, the whole thing is cold. it’s about 40 degrees out there and i’m just very grateful that it’s rain and NOT snow!! this makes me happy. i like rain. don’t much care for snow. Daisy thought she…
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    November 11, 2018
    good morning, thought i better say that before it gets to be not morning any longer. i stayed in bed this morning til a little after 10. just didn’t want to get up out of bed. it was cold and my bed was warm and comfy, why bother getting up? yesterday, i changed the sheets…
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